why am I so scared of being on pain meds, like the really good kind, like for nerve-pain?!?!
I know some people with severe depression and other mental illnesses get addicted to pain meds - I know it happens. I doubt I would be one of those people, considering I tend to 'under-take' verses 'over-take'. but maybe I'm just nervous about 'starting' on a path like this BECAUSE of where it could end up. does that make me a bad person?!
do medical people look at me differently because I'm hesitant to start pain meds I'd have to be on every single day for years to come?!? especially if I can't explain my fears to them??
my internal 'strength' has kept me away from all alcohol, tobacco, and drugs (the bad kinds)! so I know I have that going for me. at the same time, I'm basically alone IRL and not a single person would even know if I did get addicted or was 'fighting' against that. so are my fears justified or am I over-reacting (as some would say)????