Rdgrad,I understand,I too became doubtful that friends are going to abandon anyways,after my best friend dropped me like a hot potato with out any explanation. I feared making friends for years.I may have missed a couple of possible good friendships.And good people in general are hard to find these days.I even think talking care of a plant or a pet is a better option.They DO not discard you,rather reward you with beautiful flowers for the care you provided.