Oh no, I’m sorry to hear this. I had this happen to me as well, and it actually worked out in my benefit. Even though I was pausing from attending appointments, I reserved that hour each week to do something for myself (take a walk, journal).
The first few weeks were excruciating. And then something happened and I calmed down a lot. I stopped feeling anxious about therapy in general. Now that I’m back in appointments, I feel like I have more focus and motivation.
I hope you’re able to find some good in this disruptive time.