Thank you both, sweethearts. It's difficult but i rationally understand its for my benefit. I just don't do well with changes. Another thing is that during these months I'll live with my parents in a tiny flat. Usually i live alone. So now two major changes - no therapy and having no privacy and change in my daily routine.
I don't have any friends physically near me, just online... I'll have to message them more often. I could use my session time for exercise and meditation. I hope I'll be ok it just seems so overwhelming now!