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Originally Posted by Discombobulated
I am scared of conflict and this has been one of the few occasions I have asserted myself. It terrified me. I was convinced I would be abandoned. It feels weird to come out if this just fine.
I do hear what people are kindly saying about deciding my own fate - this one's complicated. My history was being friendless, as a young person (& I am not young now) I was bullied and left out often - I stopped trying too hard to engage and kept myself at arms length apart from with my spouse. I am talking over 20 years with no real friendships other than casual associations. Idk if realistically that will be a changeable part of me.
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IMO the incident you are writing about here is the first step in changing the pattern.