I am only in the beginning stages of accepting the neglect I suffered as a kid.


I always knew that my parents were different in some way to typical parents. I just thought they were more laid back or something, but indeed, there was little to no emotional connection with them.


I am aware now, that it was neglect, and I am starting to understand how it lead me to so severely lack self efficacy and self esteem as an adult.

As i am working through all this, i can't help but feel angry at them. Not for not being "perfect" but because they truly didn't try, like at all.

I am now a parent and I am far from perfect. But when I notice an area where I can improve I try my best to do so. I cannot understand how a parent could love their child and also fail to ever TRY to do what is right for them.

My son may very well grow up to resent me for my imperfections, but I think if he really examines things he will see that I at least tried to improve for him, and I think that is an important thing for a child to understand. That they are worth the effort.