Omg! I looked back and I was actually 26lbs lighter about 2-2.5 years ago! About 10lbs short of my "ideal" weight, but these days, I can't believe I was that light. I mean, I hadn't weighed that much since high school or maybe even junior high!

So, if I could just start damn losing again...if I could just tap into the secret...maybe I could lose the 40lbs, or at least the 26. I'd be ecstatic! But damnit, I can't even keep 2lbs off these days...it's depressing...at the same time, I'm not giving up...just haven't found the resolve or energy or whatever to hit it really hard yet.