I had so much emotional neglect, abuse, etc...etc.. growing up from the earliest memories that I have. I have learned a lot over the years, reading, talking with therapists. I still struggle with the effects in so many parts of my life. Self esteem, social anxiety, interaction with others, especially family. Forgiveness is a great thing, but what I can't get rid of is the hurt. Sometimes it feels like things just happened yesterday and the sting is still there. Most of the time I feel that no matter how much "work" I do to feel better that I never truly will. Not really looking for suggestions I guess.... just putting out there that I think it will effect me for the rest of my life. I used to wish for happiness...that has changed to a wish for peace.