Thanks @Skeezyks I always sort of thought myself. Like there will be one time when I go too far and then it will be like, okay I have to stop this. I thought it would be when I first got stitches, but that wasn't enough to deter me. Now I fear nothing will. Might just try to stop cold turkey and see what happens. Might not work but maybe it will. Thanks for your reply. HUGS Kit