I have hallucinations when I have flashbacks. It looks like I am underwater. Faces look distorted and monstrous. During my flashbacks I believe my loved ones are trying to gaslight and harm me, though I know in my right mind that they aren't. These episodes last usually for about 2 to 4 hours and they are terrifying. I cry and wail and cuss my husband out. I have memory loss during this time and my husband has to tell me what I have done later. I read that flashbacks with psychosis are a sign that PTSD is very severe. I have never told anyone, not even my therapist or pdoc. It is always very embarrassing and shameful for me and I hide it from others.

I am wondering if others experience this. Sometimes I feel I am the only one. It always makes me feel like I am crazy and should be committed.