I think the only reason why I'm comparing myself with what I used to be able to do, is that there are people in my life who knew me then, and they really didn't go to the hospital to visit when I was psychotic. And they take the illness lightly. They don't know what it's really like, so they expect me to be the same, taking on challenges like they do. And I tend to get sucked into that mentality that I should listen to them and take their advice.