Today is okay. I'm feeling self destructive though. There's a support group tonight (NAMI-led) that I am contemplating whether or not to go to. I've been the last two times. The first time I found it marginally helpful, last time I didn't find it very helpful. It doesn't seem like people are really going through the same things as me. Hallucinations and stuff. There's one other person there who has Schizoaffective but he doesn't say much. Sad that I can feel lonely even in a support group. But since I feel self destructive (not suicidal) I might just blow it off. I haven't decided yet. If my parents want to go to the family group then I will be more likely to go to the Connections group.