Dear Convalescence,
I am so very, very sorry for the ordeal you are undergoing due to the loss of your mother and all that entails and the additional burden of dealing with the SARS-COVID-19 virus.
What you are going through is just absolutely heartbreaking! I can't even imagine what you are suffering!
My mother is 88 years old and her loss would be huge to me. Sorry if my English is not very good.
Although I am not in your shoes and would not want to trespass on the absolute uniqueness of your experiences, I think your thoughts and feelings are very understandable. My heart goes out to you!
-- Yao Wen