I have been struggling. I feel like I need to call T but for some reason I don't! I'm sitting here thinking that it may help to talk to someone but then not feel like I'm worth the time and effort. Like I should just snap out of it. Yet I know you hat snapping out of it is hard to do.

Anxiety is high, mood is low. It's getting to be a bigger problem. How will I survive at work when I need to be the one giving support? All I know is this isn't working. I'm not to crisis yet but I fear it could go that way.