MsLady.....thanks for your comment. I'm not good at replying, cuz things are hard to put into words. Yes my father had mental illnesses. I did always have empathy, truly I did. But crap runs too deep & I really suffer with mental illness. Some could be genetic. His dad was put into a mental institution & diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. But my dad thought that was not a big deal & even hid it from my mom, when she was first pregnant, with me (the oldest). Its a giant web of lies. Anyways I'm still sober & I can think clearly, now. About all of this. Thanks for reading.