I started to cry and went up to my room. I curled up in a ball and went to sleep. I didn't mean to sleep at 3 in the afternoon. I slept for about 2 hours.

Ever since I have been in a fog. And I have watched TV. Life has gotten out of hand. I have Way too much going on. I need people. And I might need hospitalization.

I don't like this but I need a psychiatrist and I don't know any other way to get the help I need. There is a side effect for a medication that I have done well with since November. I'm free of psychosis. I don't want to get off the med. I'm in a depressed state and my mood has been all over. I've been sui.

Yet I try to stay present.

I want more help. But my family may resist my decision. I don't know what to do.

It's between getting help at a hospital or trying to do it outpatient. I've relied on the hospital. Do I rely on it again?

I am in a boot, I have a hiatal hernia, and a grandma that is getting closer to death. I have work stress. It's just. Too much.

If you had a lot of stress and a lot to do, what would you do??