I've had difficulty holding down a job due to both social anxiety and impulsivity. I walked out on my last two jobs.


The job I held the longest, almost 4 years at a clothing store, I left abruptly after shouting at an irritable customer. I had never done anything remotely like that before. I'd always been quiet and timid. That was 2 years ago. Ever since then my tolerance for rude strangers has completely evaporated. I've had a bad temper since I was a little kid, but it has gotten worse because now I have difficulty suppressing it in public.


Most of the time, I self harm as a way to express my rage towards other people.


I don't know much about personality disorders, but I would guess that they very well could make it difficult for a person to hold down a job, especially if they involve impulsivity.


I had an interview with the grocery store the very day that I first met the guy. It's an unfortunate coincidence that it is located in his town.


I didn't think I got the job at first, and I was relieved, because I didn't want to be stuck working someplace that put me within this guy's reach.


I did tell him about it, because I figured he'd see me there sooner or later anyway. If things are to end with this guy, I want it to be on good terms if we are going to be bumping into each other.

I was bullied a lot as a kid, from the time I was 8 until about 16. I think that might have arrested my development. I didn't grow up socializing with my 'peers'. I think it also has made me prejudiced against people my own age, therefore I'd rather be with an older man.