Well, we don't ever have to stop loving those who have been a huge part of our lives. I still love my ex-wife, but I have to do so in a new way now. And that love still changes even 5+ years later.

I was thinking about your situation today when this song popped up on youtube. Hopefully it is not too sad, and maybe will help you to think about priorities in your life and health. You are a brave person for reaching out. Everyone here wants to see you succeed!

Alison Krauss & Union Station - On The Outside Looking In - YouTube