Dear mother,
Today, one year to the day since you've gone away
One whole year since you left us,
With no return
For one whole year
We were trying to exist in a world
that doesn't contain you,
Trying to survive in a very big world that doesn't hold you within anymore
Time flows,
Like a fast water in the stream
Fast water that doesn't wait nobody
But not for me
For me time has stopped rolling
Since you've been gone
Time for me slowed down,
Was so heavy...
Like a building on my heart
And my heart is sad and tired
Dear mother,
Since you've been gone
Too many suns went down behind that far hills
And too many moons visited my sky
I have been watching them all
Counting them all
Moon by moon
And sun by sun
I saw everything beautiful in this universe
That god has ever created
Only you!
I haven't seen you anymore!
Since the day you have been gone,
You melted away like the snow
You leaked between our fingers and arms
Like a dew drop
Like a slight breeze in the air
In that morning
Before we even realize
Dear mother,
Nothing can fill up that emptiness
That you left behind you
inside us and around us...
All I have is my words for you
And i hope you can hear them
Every night I told
The white prayers inside the walls
I told all the candlelights
Around me
To tell you
How much I miss you
I told them to send
My strongest longings for you
Please tell me mom
Did you receive them?
I'm sitting alone besides your empty place
On our park chair
Trying to remember every word you said to me,
Every laugh u made
Even when you were silent
I felt your hugs
And i felt your tenderness in this world for me
Today,
I'm staying alone here
Time flows
As fast as the wind blowing
And going beyond and surpassing everything
Pushing everybody forwards
And leaving me here alone
Behind everybody
In the train station
Waiting for you...
And I know that I will never see you
Time flows
As fast as the water in the stream
Everything is moving and keeps changing...
The landmarks of life are changing
All these coming and leaving people
In the station are changing too
Except me
And your memory in my heart
We are going nowhere
I want you to make sure of that
One whole year
Dear mother
Only today I finally realized
That some souls aren't meant
To stay with us
down here
Some souls are meant to be in a better place
And deserve to live
Somewhere over the clouds and stars
Forgive me mother
For all the unspoken words of my love for you
That I couldn't tell you before
I love you mother
We will never forget you
R.I.P


Latifa. d,
died on this day (may, 15. 2019)