I completely and personally relate to about 96.3754 percent of what you wrote. I am so sorry for your trials and anguish, Hope, truly. Love always.

This is your post, but I will tell you that I was born blind in one eye and with many undiagnosed neurodevelopmental problems. My bipolar-schizophrenia-spectrum illness began in utero. It has been staggeringly difficult. 2 major S efforts. Saved by miracles from God. Truly. Both times. Truth. Facts.

I spent 5 yrs in a max security, incredibly dangerous state hospital because I had taken one of my prescription medications incorrectly. Frightened my precious son while psychotic and have not spoken to him in nine yrs. I could go on.

Love, compassion, prayers. God does not ever ask those He KNOWS could never do it to perform His toughest trials. We are truly blessed and loved by Him. We are all special. Every last one of us. Have faith.