It's good that you're taking steps to get back into care. I have dropped out of care in the past too and it can be hard to reconnect and take that step. If treatment has been helpful to you in the past then that's a good thing to remind yourself. Try to make a note to yourself or think about it whenever you think of cancelling an appointment or not taking medication. Tell yourself that you have been happier, stronger, or better overall when you have gotten care. It can be important for us to hear our own words, even if it means writing ourselves a letter that we can look at in the future when we start to doubt. Good luck!