so i'm looking at getting a 'newer/different' vehicle, going from a car to an suv. my parents have been searching for me too, trying to find 'good ideas/options'. [i've only had a car previously, so i have zero knowledge of suv designs or things like that.....]


my mom sent me a link for a 'good deal suv' yesterday. i looked at the email last night and noticed that this suv had a 'panoramic view/sun-roof/moon-roof' thingy on it. this was my first time seeing one like this, and we are looking at the same model type.

i think i immediately got this like cold-sense sent thru my body. the idea of having 'glass' next to my head i think just sent me going.


so i replied to my mom saying 'i doubt i'd be comfortable with having more glass next to my head'. she replied today, basically saying i could close it and the view would be gone - something like that.

tonight, i find i'm having flashbacks of BOTH my car-crash from five years ago and my car-accident from many years ago!! apparently just thinking about having a vehicle with a 'glass top' is super unsettling to me.

and my mind isn't stopping there. it's taking things even farther!



if my mom 'pushes' this suv on me (mainly cuz of the good value), what do i do since i can't explain this? h**l, i can't even talk to anyone IRL about my ptsd!


[the five-year anniversary mark for my car crash was just seven days ago! talk about horrible timing, uh?! ]