Well that is one way to get off some of it. For some reason I am Just obsessing over it, at my last appointment I told my dr I do not know what I want to do if I want to continue, I quit going therapy about 3 months ago. Because I feel like this is all kind of futile. Nothing my life is the same except now I am swallowing a bunch of pills I do not know how to talk about it to my Dr. because he told me I just keep throwing myself further into mania and kind of feel like my personal feelings do not matter.