The shower scares me cause I get really bad back pain from standing up. Once it's done I feel better and I've tried tricks to make it easier, but now I'm just too scared to try. So I wash up at the sink in short intervals. I'm overweight and it's a lot of energy to put clothes on, brush my teeth and get presentable. It's my fault for not taking better care of myself. I don't understand the driving fear. I used to ride a motorcycle all by myself across country when I was younger. Even drove it in San Francisco to and from work. I don't know what happened to that person. Can anyone relate?

Yea, I like to look up on wikihow on how to deal with things. It's helpful. Thanks for the responses and the book suggestion. I will have to look that up.