Having an emergency session with L in 30mins. I'm not doing so good after sharing with her parts of my past. And, I'm having a hard time trusting her. I feel like she's just painting everything in rainbows, even though to me, it's much worse. I'm having problems accepting her accepting me.

H first didn't allow it. Told me I can only do the free 20min phone call. But then he changed his mind when I told him everything, and he agreed to a full session. Actually, I think it's only because he wants to spend more money on the car. I just warned him now to be quite for my session, and he's mad that it's a full session! I guess he forgot? Idk. He really sucks sometimes.