Personally I am only able to have a couple of friends that are my closest. I have a lot of friends but it takes a good friend to really hear you and empathize with you, and being the closest friend(s) they love you .Personally I have found over time that it is a mistake to talk about such intimate things with many friends. The concentrated and genuine love I get from my closest friend is way more emotionally supportive to me then a group of people that may or may not think of me as their closest friend. I had a long term T that was very good to me. He was very gentle. But i never got it out of my head that I was paying him and that ultimately it was a professional relationship.