i just had a weepy 20 minute phone call with T. I never, ever cry - but the fear of losing him and the safe relationship we have developed is SO big.

I do think I feel better for now. I'm sure he thinks this is GREAT material for therapy - brings in the SA issue we've only touched on here and there, and brings up all of my issues with trust/safety/relationships that we're constantly working on in therapy.

He's so gentle and understanding and non-judgmental. I feel like he "heard" me and I do feel better for now. Whew.