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Member Since Apr 2016
Location: Providence, RI
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I quit drinking for 8 years....it was not the BEST 8 years of my life as advertised...but I believe it kept me alive...till now anyway.
My sister died in Sept of drugs and alcohol...by accident...just one time too much. Seems like everytime I drink I do it a little too much...luckily I am not hugely addicted to drugs...and only use my benzo when I wake up in the middle of the night shaking and sweating. I saw my b/f with another girl on Friday in his house..and she was sitting on his bed...Thankfully, they were both dressed. Then I went into another spiral after being sober for 10 months again. That is somewhat of a lie...when my sister and I had a fight 3 days before she died....I drank when she left here....after 10 months...the anxiety was overpowering to me. Then she died....I drank again..I'm a binge drinker...then I got good...a couple weeks....Then I wanted to drink again...then I stopped and last Friday saw my boyfriend with another girl and just have been struggling. Also my Dad has dementia and a big part of my world I spend at least 2 hours a day with him and it is overwhemling and I don't want to do it...but its good for him and for me. Anyway...Today I am starting the fight...I set myself up with clean sheets....raimen noodles, gatorade, an italian grinder that can be heated and I also ate an egg...the first thing I ate in 4 days... Food matters..if you want to get sober..food matters. And so does the "recovery" kit. (Ramen, Gatorade, Eggs, bread, jello) Wish me luck __________________ "I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell" (My girlfriend had this ringtone for my phone calls...lol) Bipolar 1 Anxiety Current Medications: Lorazepam Zoloft Abilify Gabapentin |
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I'm sorry, you've got so much on your plate right now...
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Grand Member
Member Since Apr 2016
Location: Providence, RI
Posts: 807
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Thank you..it feels good to be heard.
and now I lay me down to sleep and pray the Lord my soul to keep. And when I keep this soul..I will do the best I can __________________ "I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell" (My girlfriend had this ringtone for my phone calls...lol) Bipolar 1 Anxiety Current Medications: Lorazepam Zoloft Abilify Gabapentin |
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