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Wise Elder
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Location: Michigan
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Sep 12, 2017 at 08:16 AM
#621
I'm back going to meetings again. When I get paranoid it's hard for me to sit through meetings, or to share. I have a quite a few 24 hours of sobriety, so I don't get the urge to drink, but I know meetings help me with my sobriety as well as my mental health. Isolating is a bad space for me, & if I do it too long I wind up in bad mental spaces. The past few years, I've made an attempt to form more friendships in the program to prevent me from disappearing so easily. While I've shared that I have bipolar disorder & disappear sometimes, my AA friends call me to encourage me along. AA is about more than getting sober...It's sometimes like learning to live again.
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Location: Texas
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Sep 12, 2017 at 08:42 AM
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Magnate
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Sep 12, 2017 at 09:27 AM
#623
splitimage - if you are are back to abstaining it is just a slip IMO. Hang in there.
emgreen - I hear you about the social aspect. I don't get calls checking up on me. My wife and family know I was drinking/using and quit, but they never ask me about how it is going and if I am sticking to it. The closest they came to that is when I wanted something specific for dinner and was going to run out and get it and my wife expressed concern that I was going to get alcohol, so I asked one of the kids to come along just so she would know that was not the case. Kind of pissed me off that the only feedback I get is suspicion. I have started going to the RI meetings and there I don't report. Most of the positive feedback I get is here. EDIT - oh yeah - hanging in - 2 months 2 weeks and some days another edit - I should ask my t to ask me on each visit. that is almost every week. yet another edit - I left my t a phone message asking her to make me check in. I have no reason to lie to her; if I were to slip I would want to talk about it. __________________ | |Up and down |And in the end it's only round and round |Pink Floyd - Us and Them | |bipolar II, substance use disorder, ADD |lamictal, straterra | Last edited by UpDownAround; Sep 12, 2017 at 01:20 PM.. |
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Metaphysic
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Sep 12, 2017 at 09:47 AM
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One week sober ^^
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Member Since Feb 2013
Location: planet earth
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Sep 12, 2017 at 09:57 AM
#625
Drum roll please I am on my anniversary day so this what the sober app is showing:
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Sep 12, 2017 at 10:51 AM
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Sep 12, 2017 at 12:27 PM
#627
I know you found yourself in a rough situation recently (your housemate using), but you made it to your 2 & 2 anniversary! Congrats!
Congrats on the week, Desoxyn! I know it's been a rough road for you! |
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Magnate
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Sep 12, 2017 at 09:45 PM
#628
Went to my second Recovery International meeting tonight. I prepped for it by filling out a worksheet with an example of something that happened recently that I want to apply RI principles and methods to. I jumped in with both feet; I chose crashing into depression and resisting being triggered into numbing myself to it. I do see how their methods make it easier. Short trite expressions can have some power if you remember to trot them out in your head at the right time. For example, "Be self led, not symptom led" - don't let the depression make the decision. "Feelings are not facts" - the stuff that goes through my head when depressed is often based on negative feelings and not accurate. I think it helps to have simple phrases to remind me of these things.
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Sep 12, 2017 at 11:44 PM
#629
I saw my addictions counsellor today and announced it was my anniversary day so she said it was my birthday so walked past this office and basically everyone wished me happy birthday and then the receptionist asked if I was going to chuckie cheese!
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Sep 13, 2017 at 04:52 AM
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Sep 13, 2017 at 05:21 AM
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Congratulations Greentires4me - 2 years, 2 months is awesome.
Well I survived yesterday without drinking. But was fighting the urge to order a bottle all day. Was sick most of the day, but finally managed solid food around dinner time. Going to a group at my rehab today which will be good. splitimage __________________  "I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba 
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Sep 13, 2017 at 09:16 AM
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Sep 13, 2017 at 03:29 PM
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Didn't make it to the group at rehab today. Was crying too hard. I've been bawling my head off all day - only mananged to stop barely to go out to the pharmacy to pick up my meds.
Called my addictions Dr. today and asked if I could redo the IOP program - I feel like I need some structured, stable support to build up some sober time again. I see her next on Mon. Also called my compounding pharmacy, found out I had an order on file for Antabuse, and so ordered it. Will hopefully have it by the weekend. I'm just so sad. splitimage __________________ "I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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Wise Elder
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Sep 13, 2017 at 05:06 PM
#634
I'm sorry you're feeling so down, splitimage. I hate when I get into those crying spells. It sounds, however, like you're making plans to get out & "grab the bull by the horns." I hope you feel better soon...alcohol is a depressant, so don't push the panic button yet that this feeling will continue. Just remember how good sobriety can feel...You've been there!
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Sep 13, 2017 at 10:18 PM
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splits,
I don't bawl, just the glistening eyes with one rolling down my cheek every now and then and even that makes me uncomfortable in social/group situations. So I feel for you also. Good to hear you are so committed. __________________ | |Up and down |And in the end it's only round and round |Pink Floyd - Us and Them | |bipolar II, substance use disorder, ADD |lamictal, straterra | |
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Sep 14, 2017 at 05:59 AM
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Thanks Emgreen and UpDownandAround
I had the worst time falling asleep last night. I was physically exhausted from crying all day, and I even took extra clonazapam, which I have my pdoc's ok to do once in a while. But I couldn't shut my racing brain off. Finally did fall asleep but had bizarre dreams all night. I'm still feeling very weepy today. Hope it won't last all day. The good news is my Antabuse is already ready at the pharmacy, so I can go pick it up today. splitimage __________________ "I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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Sep 14, 2017 at 11:05 AM
#637
I am titrating back up on wellbutrin and someone reminded me of one reason I stopped taking it some time ago - it amplifies hangovers. It's not antabuse, but a deterrent nonetheless. Many years ago, I got the nasty GI bug giardia and it was treated with flagyl. I found out the hard way that flagyl is chemically very similar to antabuse. The doctor did say something about alcohol, but I ignored it because "they always say that". That was no fun. I would run into the bathroom needing to sit on the toilet but also lean over it. Needless to say, I abstained from that point until several days after the last dose.
Still hanging tough... __________________ | |Up and down |And in the end it's only round and round |Pink Floyd - Us and Them | |bipolar II, substance use disorder, ADD |lamictal, straterra | |
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Sep 14, 2017 at 01:37 PM
#638
It always seems impossible until it's done.
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Sep 14, 2017 at 03:01 PM
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oh UpDownAround, I'm sorry about your Flagyl experience. My addictions Dr. prescribes it to people who can't take Antabuse.
I picked up my prescription, and took a pill as soon as I got home. I'm going to take it every morning with my psych meds from now on. It feels both sad and good to have taken drinking off the table as an option, while I build up some more sober coping skills, and lifestyle. splitimage __________________ "I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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Sep 14, 2017 at 11:02 PM
#640
I'm going to see if IOP is covered by insurance, keeping me from smoking pot would be worth it on its own as it is the biggest catalyst I have for using more drugs.
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