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Thank you so much! I have yet to search google/you tube for other videos of sound baths. I will try that this morning.

I got up early this morning turned off the alarm at 6;30 so I have plenty of time for cups of coffee and stretching exercises.
my sacrum left side of my back was sore/hurt last night at the movie and walking back to our car. Wonder if I injured it doing the stretches. One of them was a twisting of my back/spine. It definitely was stiff, I could do those exercises so well a year ago. Last year I stopped doing them because I thought I had injured my back plus I no longer wanted to do them. Lazy or lack of motivation. Maybe both. I did them faithfully twice a day for a month...It took me 25 minutes each set.

Wonder if I have sciatica?
I forgot to do the pigeon pose sitting yesterday...I should be able do this with my left leg but not my right leg. Will try this morning.
175.3 this morning, I will take it.
Hubby is driving to new orleans today to pick up his best friends daughter.
And I will be working, hoping to see my girl friend at noon as I will be on the north side of town. I will call her, have not chatted in quite a while. Doris is the friend that I traveled with last Oct to north carolina for a blue grass festival, and visited a few other areas during our 8 day rode trip.
I hope that you have a lovely day. Waking up clear headed is great!

3 nights Alcohol free.
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I did my stretching exercises with out pain to my back and even did a plank...now that was no fun! 20 seconds.
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It was a light day at work. was supposed to see 4 clients but ended up seeing only 2 but was happy about that because it allowed me to see my friend Doris. She had a lot going on in her life so I was glad that I called. She is seriously going to leave her husband. They are living separate lives in the same house, she is not cooking for him nor doing his laundry. She just needs to figure out where to go live, she doesn't want to stay here. She has put up with so much abuse it is not funny. I believe she is 72 years old. She says I am the only person she can talk to about important stuff. She does see a psychologist once a month. I told her she needed to see her more often.
Another worry is that her mother just got diagnosed with uterine cancer, they are doing a pet scan next week to see if it has spread. She is 90 years old and refuses to have surgery.
Unfortunately, Doris has a strained relationship with almost all of her family.
It was good to talk with her, am glad that I can be a support person to her.

I had a grilled chicken salad from mcdonalds for lunch.
saw another client and came back home. Decided we needed some salad makings and diet salad dressings.I cooked up some left overs(alfredo pasta and macaroni and cheese) with squash spiral noodles and mushrooms and a bit of pesto.
It turned out very good but was very fattening.I didn't eat that much maybe a cup.
I have no idea how many calories was in that.
After dinner we went to art walk downtown. went to the main gallery and they were having a performance art with 15 people all dressed differently and eccentrically. They kind of did a fashion show. It was odd really.
We walked thru the Acadiana center for the arts, and went thru the vault...the building used to be a bank. They had interesting quilts that I love.
One of the things that I bought at the store, is a box of 40calorie fudge bars. yum I had one then had a 100 calorie bag of pop corn, hubby had some of mine.
I had a light lunch a very heavy dinner and then some snacks which were reasonable.
And this is the 4th night not drinking., so that is good.
My back is sore again, just walking downtown in the heat was tiring and my back ached, then my foot started hurting me. I need new shoes. I ordered some new boat shoes but they came in today and were too big.
Now I have to return them, and have to go shoe shopping which I hate to shop.
I need to do some of my exercises before bed.
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I forgot, I threw out so many bottles of old condiments and sauces, apple butters bbq sauces jellies and fattening salad dressings ...It weighed a ton. I cleaned off a few of the shelves.
and organized it better and there was so much more room!!!!! yay!

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Sounds like overall you've had a few good days. Glad you could see your friend Doris.

Well done on the 3 nights AF.

Hope your back pain clears up, with continued stretching.
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split, thanks for the reminder, I forgot to do my stretches today.
I will go do them right now!
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My low back has started bothering me since I started gaining weight in the belly area. I think if I can lose the weight, the pain will stop.

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I gained weight in my belly as well. I look pregnant. not a pretty sight.
I would like to lose all of this weight gain.
I am shooting for low carb when I have finished this delicious dish that I made: an alfredo, pesto, mac and cheese, mushroom delight. There are probably 2 servings left.
I am not drinking right now so that should help me to lose.
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So, I just want to cut back on my portions.
I split my lunch today. Half a hamburger steak with squash, beets and kale.
so had that for dinner plus left over chicken and salad so ended up eating more than I should. There are still left overs from 2 nights ago the mushroom alfredo which I thought jeff was going to eat tonight but did not. sigh
I have 2 pork chops talapia, and chicken all thawed and forgot that jeff is fasting wed and thur.
rats, guess I will cook up this food and it will keep in the refrigerator. I can't refreeze it like I thought about.

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I need new nite gowns.
6th day today AF.
Will go to the mall to look.
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For me,
vacations are really hard to moderate, yes feeling like we deserve to drink and be happy.
I drank heavily in june while in IN for 2 weeks. I did not drink for 4 days in march this year in florida
when the rest of my family did.
why can't we not drink and be happy?
I want to moderate while we are on a 2 day vacation
to florida in august and then a week in europe in sept/oct then home for
christmas in december for 2 weeks.
Since I am dieting I am not drinking. the scale is slowly moving down.
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I almost stopped for a beer after work but instead drank a big glass of sweetened water on the drive home. no room for beer so I just went home. It worked..until i got home and looked in the refrigerator and hubby had beer that I like I was this close to asking him for one of his beers but then I got busy cooking up a new dish that the urge went away.
whew!
Fish stew:
It turned out great and hubby loved it.

Talapia, italian diced tomatoes, thyme, garlic powder, parsley
carrots and onions. It took more time chopping than cooking.
If any one wants the recipe I will post it.

Had it with an avocado and some blueberries. yum!
So it was a great meal, and healthy.
and easy to cook taking only 10 minutes to cook.

I need to find more recipes like this.
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lunch :
I had beef and squash and fruit salad and swiss chard. Everything was healthy,
organic and grass fed beef. I eat at sandras health food store.
I just heard of a new place that has plate lunches with organic foods.
I am so excited to try it out.
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Got up early today due to restlessness, before 6am.
I was looking forward to sleeping in....sigh
so much for that!
Grabbed a cup of coffee and sat down to peruse the forums.
Unfortunately I sat in some cat throw up....yuck!@
Had to get undressed and spot treat my new nite shirt.
I cleaned myself and the chair.
Put my freshly cleaned uniform on and got ready for work.
My first client of the day is at 10 am.
I am doing a load of laundry, something useful during this extra time not sleeping.
I finally went to the bathroom as that had been a problem for days.
I weighed 174.9 this morning...I know that it is water weight especially since I had some loose stools this morning(sorry if TMI).
The reason that I weigh myself every day is because I hate how I look. I have gained weight everywhere, I can't even see my collar bone. And I have back fat and shoulder fat and rolls under/at my bra line. I look pregnant, hate it. HATE IT!!!!!
I was denied acceptance to the Aspen Clinic (medical weight loss clinic)because I am bipolar and take klonipin. That was disappointing. They counted calories which I found to be deplorable. So now I am just eating healthy and watching portion sizes. and loosing weight slowly.
Not drinking has helped take off a couple of pounds.
I will take it.
On to my 3rd cup of coffee.
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Came home early and sat in my car contemplated going to fat pats for a couple of beers. hubby came out. So I went in. cleaned up some more cat puke on the carpet we have a sick kitty.She has thrown up a lot today. put the food up so she can't eat it.Told hubby that I was going to go get a beer. and he frowned because he is doing a 2 day fast again.so I looked up how fattening the beers are....280 calories for 2- 10oz beers. I have talked myself out of going.
There are left overs for me to eat from the other night, mushroom alfredo. I will eat that and throw the rest away.
So I dodged a bullet.
whew!
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coming here has helped me be accountable.

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did not make it home...went to fat pats for beer. 60 oz by the time I was through. 5-12 oz beers is a binge.

jeff is trying to give hattie her pill by hiding into her new wet food.
we shall see if she eats it or not.
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he popped the pill into her mouth.
I also ate a big basket of fries.
sigh

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WE won trivia tonight, although I really couldnot answer any questions. The other members of our team won.
We gave them the $20 gift card to whole foods.
We had a cheese tray and split a pizza for dinner. I had a few drinks.
nice evening. So much for my diet.


I work tomorrow, going out of town, little town called Iota, LA.

Jeff has his big band concert/dance. The sky liners play at a club tomorrow night. It is a 20 piece jazz band, big band with a singer.
they have dances every other month thru out the year.
The players do it for the ove of music as it doesn't pay much.
I have seen them play several times before. The music all sounds the same so I won't go again unless I go with some one else.

my new shoes came in...not crazy about them.
they are boat shoes and I guess I am just going to have to break them in


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when I drink I make poor food choices.....
I don't have enough will power to stop. Jeff doesn't think I have a problem.
he surprised me last night by going to Brazillion rodizio grill.
They slice meat off at your table. meat meat meat!!!!! buffet food table. We won't go back there. I thought the food had a weird taste, like msg or something.
expensive and never going back.
sigh
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For lunch at sandras, jeff joined me at sandras.
I had grilled sea bass and chard and spinach red lentil soup. It was delicious!

Going to have chicken/asparagus for dinner tonight.
We were going to have that last night but the chicken had spoiled rotten. yuck.

I stopped off at a meat market to buy some more chicken.
I had a cancellation This afternoon. That is why I am able to post.
I have not posted on the forums, the other ones much because I don't feel like participating as much.
I need to reel in my computer usage.
sigh
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I am so depressed about my weight 183.6, highest weight in a year. __________________

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I forget, does anyone follow my thread?
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thank you if you do.

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Hi Bizi,

I read your thread - just don't comment often.

I can relate to your saying that you make poor food choices when you drink. I'm the same way. So it's a double whammy.

It sounds like you've got some great places around you to eat. I'm jealous, there's nothing particularly good close to me, not that I can afford to eat out anyways.

Good luck with the weight loss.

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Thanks for responding!!!!!
I get discouraged and feel alone when no one responds. my insecurities.
hope you are well.
(((((HUGS))))
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