[bizi]

Thanks split, don't know about staying AF for easter. up a pound this morning...should not weigh every day but it is an obsession.

My nose is healing quite well. just redness and some little bit of peeling from the benzolperoxide use.
Now I have a rather bothersome pimple bump under my left eye...the part that my glasses hit. Because I picked it, It looks terrible and I need to leave that alone. It is different from my usual rosacea acne. so am afraid it is permanent. it looks a bit purple this morning.
sigh
I need more coffee this morning.

I should just break down and go to a dermatologist. I have a suspicious mark on my face. When I had those BBL broad band laser treatments and cyro treatments they did not get rid of this...so that is why I think it may be precancerous.
I never got orders to see a client of mine for this morning need to call the hospice nurse to see if she can intervene.
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[bizi]

176.9
14 pound loss since 3-6-19 =190.8pounds
Tried to do a plank this morning could only hold it for 12 seconds...
sigh
I am so out of shape.
Hubby held it a minute.
Need to get back to walking at least.
Last time I walked I could only walk 1 mile.
sigh
bizi
Good news, I took a shower this morning and washed my hair!

[bizi]

A plank is yoga pose. kind of like a push up except you are on your elbows with your hands/arms resting out in front of you. Then you get up on your toes and being as straight as you can hold that position. It is supposed to work your stomach "core" muscles.
It is very hard to do.

I just did the plank with hubby and held the pose for 25 seconds. hubby held it for 65 seconds.
Better is better.

Planks: I used to be able to do them and had done them up to 2 minutes...now that was several years ago and at a much lighter weight.
I hate doing crunches/sit ups because I have neck issues.
My overall body is out of shape completely.
I also have balance issues. I fell onto my towel rack and bruised my upper arm the other day. Very painful, simply getting out of the shower.
I fell 2 months ago going up a curb and hurt my ribs.

I really need to work on my balance. I have exercises to do and should do them.
bizi

[splitimage]

Bizi,

Balance issues are really annoying. I have them too, as a result of the meds I'm taking that make me dizzy and groggy. I've fallen and injured myself many times, before the last major fall.

I also agree that you should probably see a dermatologist. I'm seeing one tomorrow for a black spot that my family Dr. is worried about.

Good luck with increasing the exercise that's something I also need to work on.

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[bizi]

split, thanks....
I will try to plank this morning again.a friend of mine gave me a couple of suggestionssqueeze butt and tuck in hips.
sill see if that helps.
bizi

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Jeff has one too and went to the walk in clinic down the road. Just hit him acutely. His maxillary sinuses, even his teeth hurt him. He is sleeping right now which is good, he did not sleep well the night before.

They gave him amoxicilian, flonase, steroids to take and a cortizone shot in his butt.
I don't like the way they prescribed the steroid use. 30mg x 4 days then none.
He has 20 pills I told him to taper off them.
30mg x 2 days then 20mg x 2 days then 10 mg x 2 days, perhaps then 5mg x2 days then none.
What do you think about this?

I am up too early this morning...anxious to weigh myself.
stuck at 177.4.
I had cream in my coffee so broke my fasting guidelines....rationallizing what harm can half and half do?
It is mostly fat so has few carbs.

Last night I got home early and baked some chicken thighs wrapped in bacon. Put them in the oven to cook. Then jeff came home sick and decided he had a sinus infection so he drove himself to the walk in clinic. and I drove to the minute med clinic and gave him our hsa (health savings account)card. It is a pre tax savings card for medical purposes.

Went home and the chicken was over cooked. Jeff had said he wasn't hungry so I ate the over cooked chicken throwing away the hard areas.
It was late by the time jeff got home. Went to the grocery store to pick up yogurt and cottage cheese for him, I ended up going to popeyes for chicken for him to eat. He went to bed early, hoping he slept well.

I got up at 5am this morning...onto my 3rd cup of coffee.

Every day I check onto my yahoo email account with a little bit of anxiety. Worried that I will get a note from my lawyer about the board of nursing stuff. So far none.So I just have to wait on the board. I could wait a long time. Which is fine by me.

Had to let go of another client of mine because she doesn't have a doctor. She uses walk in clinics if she needs care.

yesterday I worked in the yard a bit. Pulling up dead leaves and pruning stalks of cannas. A type of flower that grows and spreads fast. I had not done that in a years time and it was awful looking. Cut it all down to the ground then raked the leaves up to. It is all ready to grow, a fresh start even pruned back the shoots that had started to grow because some of the leaves were damaged from some cold weather that we had a month ago.

Now what to do it is almost 6 am and I don't have anything that I need to do. I guess I could clean the house a little. I used endust on the coffee table in the living room. Wiped down3/4 of it. There was paper work and a file folder on top of the corner that I did not move to dust under that. So I will finish that today.

It has been 5 weeks since I have had cream in my coffee.
It is just lovely! I missed it.
Have a good day!
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Now I am getting sick...really scratchy throat, starting to get a cough. Took a zyrtek this morning. So far no sneezing. Every body is suffering with allergies.
I just took some nite quil, I got up early today at 5;30am...just took my night meds. hope I can sleep tonight. Will see what I wake up with in the morning.
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Still on the verge of being sick.... just a scratchy throat, little cough, thickening of the back of my throat.
Crossing fingers, took a zyrtek and allegra d this morning.
Made a call to a client, will see her at 1;30pm this afternoon after lunch at chris's po boys.
Chicken and sausage gumbo sounds good on my throat.
I broke my fast last night and had a fudge pop at around 9pm.
It felt good on my throat. We watched an episode of LOST last night. Great show!

I have been picking at my face but have been trying to do better. I have 2 small white pimples on my right side of my nose. I am leaving those alone for now. They are sensitive to touch.
My nose is bright red on that side of my nose from weeks of pimples and picking.I also have pimples and scabs on the left side of my face from pimples and picking. this will leave scars no doubt. and is red and lumpy. my poor face. It is a good thing I have this "camophlage" makeup/cover up. It works wonders!

I have been wearing lip stick for a few days now. Jeff said he liked it. And eye liner which gets messy by the end of the day. need to get some vaseline to take it off easily. I like it, some of my clients have complimented so that is nice to hear. I like it too and think it helps me feel less self conscious about my face.

I am only using the benzolperoxide cleaner at night to take off my make up and then wash my face with the seaweed/charcoal soap, then I use the vitamin c serum followed by a light moisturizer. My face seems to be happy with these products. So will keep using them. I get them cheaper on amazon!
Sorry for going on and on about this.
I wish I could quit picking, have been a picker my whole life.
My poor face is covered in scars...you think I would have learned to leave my face alone!
sigh
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Still alcohol free one more week of abs then we shall see what I do then. I have had a pretty regular weight loss14.1 pounds in 5 weeks. I would say that is pretty good. I still look pregnant. My Intermittant fasting is working and following a lowish carb diet.
Went to a dinner it was all very good and healthy
baked chicken and asparagus and brussel sprouts and cucumbers and we brought a lovely fruit salad that hubby made. with strawberries pineapple, blue berries and raspberries. yummy. snacked on some dark chocolate almond candy and some roasted almonds. Very filling but not stuffed!
Then proceeded to drink 5 sparkling sodas.
I hope I don't have to get up to go pee too many times tonight!
Our friend paul is also abstaining from alcohol for lent. And hubby is taking anti biotics so he was drinking water too. so rob was the only one drinking whisky.
I did not miss it as I was not nervous being around them. So I think I can continue to do this after easter.
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I just took zyrtek and allegra d for my symptoms, have a yucky cough and scratchy throat still have some sniffles, my eyes are watering this morning.
So I am fighting what ever this is.

Jeff is better today. still coughing a bit. I got up and went to the other bed room last night because I felt like I was going to have a coughing fit and went pee. The house was cold so I had to get up and get a blanket to put on top of me. I got a cough drop and that seemed to help ward off a coughing fit. Took another clonipin just .5mg to see if that would help me get back to sleep and it did.

Got up at 8:30. Jeff got up shortly after me.
It is cooler outside.
WE dodged a bullet last night. There were supposed to be heavy rains and storms...but did not. It had been gusty and heavy winds all day yesterday.
Invited melissa and her hubby brian for dinner tonight we have a meat loaf that needs to be eaten along with some pork sausage I was going to mix the two together to make it a 2 pound loaf. Yesterday she said maybe...They were going to go to lake martin to go kayaking and she is an excellent photographer.

She calls that her happy place.
They have been training for a half marathon...so proud of them both!

Visited with my friend Doris for a few hours yesterday so that was great seeing her. Doris went with me 2 octobers ago when we went to north carolina to hear bluegrass. I think I was hypo or manic on that trip, looking back at it.
She is a good friend.
I am drinking plenty of fluids like usual.
Need to hop into the shower...it has been 5 days.
sigh
wish it weren't such an ordeal but it is....

Looking forward to my bacon lettuce egg tomato mayo on rye bread sandwich This morning...love it! It has become my usual choice...took me long enough to finally eat some bread with out freaking out!

This is the only bread that I have for the week though.

lots of love for my friends here,
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The BLT with an egg sandwich was delicious!
It was to come with a side of potatoes or grits, I said no sides.
I left some of the crust behind so am very satisfied....
Jeff enjoyed his Ruebin sandwich too.

Our friends backed out of dinner and said that we need to get together soon.
oh well...that meat loaf still needs to be eaten, maybe we can call paul to see if he would like to come over for a quick dinner?

Jeff has a lot of paper work that needs to be done (he is 2 months behind in doing the check book)and I have busy paper work to do as well....I listen to the grateful dead music cassette tape from years ago....when ever I have to do paperwork that I don't like doing.

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Our cat Hattie, had surgery on her back and side today to remove 2 cancerous masses.
WE know this because she had them removed prior to this by another vet a few months ago.
They grew back so this new vet said he thought he got it all. We will see. He took out part of her muscle so it is painful. We have pain meds to give to her. She is wearing the thunder shirt again and is doing well adjusting to being home. Hazel has hissed at her a few times. She has eaten and drank water so that is good. no throw up.This will be the last surgery we will do.
She is only 10 years old. we will just take things as they come.We are hopeful....
just wanted to let you know.
bizi

[splitimage]

bizi, I'm so sorry your cat needed another surgery. I hope she makes a complete recovery. It's a good thing that she's eating and drinking.
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Eating was the first thing she did yesterday. she splayed out on the floor at the food bowl and ate.
Perhaps we should have waited awhile but we did not. It was a while before she drank any water.
Thanks split.

How are you?
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I'm doing ok, thanks for asking Bizi. Still have some pain from my fall, but I have a followup at the brain injury clinic next week. I go for a 2nd CT scan of my lungs tomorrow morning, so see if there's any change in the black spot they discovered on the initial scan.

And today is 6 months sober. Really happy about that.

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[bizi]

Originally Posted by splitimage

I'm doing ok, thanks for asking Bizi. Still have some pain from my fall, but I have a followup at the brain injury clinic next week. I go for a 2nd CT scan of my lungs tomorrow morning, so see if there's any change in the black spot they discovered on the initial scan.

And today is 6 months sober. Really happy about that.

splitimage

congratulations!!!!!
bizi

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6 weeks sober and
174.2 this morning.
just took a shower....
onto my second cup of coffee, feeling so groggy this morning.
This Intermittant fasting is really working for me.
veggie mousaka for lunch today...yay!
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From the weekly weigh ins: weight lost

3-6= 190.8
3-13= 181.6 (-9.2)
3-20= 179.4 (-2.2)
3-27= 178.8 (-.6)
4-2= 179.1 (+.3)
4-9= 176.9 (-2.2)
4-16= 176 (-.9)
4-19= 174.6 (-1.4)

total pounds lost since march 6th= 16.2pounds
not counting the first week of diet I have lost an average of 1 pound per week. 7 pounds over the past 6 weeks. I will hunker down until may 1st my first goal weight of 169.9.
I don't think I can get there but who knows! Being alcohol free is the only way that I could have lost this weight. Intermittant fasting has worked and lowerish carb dieting.
bizi
that is 4.7 pounds in 12 days!...maybe!

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Bizi,

I'm curious about your intermitent fasting. An ex room mate of mine used it to great success and lost a lot of weight. I'm thinking of trying it.

If you don't mind sharing, what are your eating vs fasting hours.

Thanks.
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[bizi]

It is pretty simple really.
I skip breakfast.
And eat my first meal of the day somewhere between 1130am to noon eating a healthy lunch lots of veggies 3 sides and a protein at sandras health food cafe, every day. Then may have a nut or two to snack on before dinner or even a piece of cheese or both. have dinner at 5;30 or 6 or later but no later than 7;30pm.
So no snacking after dinner nor calories. I do have sugar free hard candies that have sugar alcohol in them to sweeten them. and are very satisfying and I drink a zevia soda at night with stevia sweetener which is made from a plant and is a diet drink that is safe to drink.
I also use the liquid sweetener called sweet leaf and use 2 half dropperfulls in the morning with my coffee. or even just plain water at night and heat it up.I like the sweetness. It is really sweet and satisfying! I used to use creamer too but have not in 6 weeks since starting this way of life. so 11:30 to 7:30 then nothing for 16 hours until the next day at 11:30-
It is working for me. I also follow a lowerish carb diet meals getting carbs from veggies...but sometimes I do have a bit of potato or quinoa, I might even have a mashed sweet potato at lunch. I eat chocolate every night and like the fudge pops, all before 7;30pm except for these hard candies. which don't effect your blood sugar.
hope this helps...
ask me anything.
bizi
My therapist did this and lost 68 pounds
(I don't know her time frame)and is keeping it off. She is not watching what she ate....