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#441
Hope things go well, Splits!
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#442
Next month I have the issue someone else (child?) faced a while back - shoulder surgery and rehab. I think I am going with the Advil and a stick to bite option. I discussed it with my pdoc at a med check the other day. She specializes in mood disorders and substance abuse, which is why I picked her. It was a pretty short discussion. Mostly it's because my memories of use are a little too positive; too easy to slip back into the "if I am careful" mindset. I am still scared of it right now. One thing that shook me up was reading about someone local who took about the same dosage I often took and rank with it, drinking less than I sometimes did, and he died in his sleep.
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Think about the effects of pain on your mood. Also think if there is anyone who could hold the pain meds and give you only a certain amount at a time. That is where I messed up... I didn't have someone holding them for me even after I started craving them. __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain |
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#445
Well I survived my first shift yesterday, and it went pretty well I think. I got mostly positive feedback, with the only criticism being that I was slow, which I think is normal for a first day.
They're bringing me in again today for a second shift, so I'm taking that as a positive sign. And I didn't have any desire to drink after work. But I was exhausted by the end of the day. splitimage |
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I am more afraid of the craving than I am of the pain. It can override rational thinking. Even if someone is doling it out, I will no longer have the streak of opiate free days; this thought crossed my mind even while I am rational and not in a good way. That really spooked me. __________________ | |Up and down |And in the end it's only round and round |Pink Floyd - Us and Them | |bipolar II, substance use disorder, ADD |lamictal, straterra | |
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#447
UpDownAround,
Good luck with your decision on whether or not to take opiates for pain. I think if someone else was controlling the dosing, I'd be inclined to take them, as I've heard that if you're in pain it can actually slow down the healing process. But I totally hear you on the cravings thing and not wanting to start them. Survived my second shift, although it didn't go as well as my first day - won't bore you with the details, but I was exhausted by the end of it. They offered me a third shift today, which I think is a good sign, but i had to turn it down, as I didn't think I could handle it physically. And I'm really glad I turned it down, this morning, my feet and legs are still really sore and stiff and my arm is sore. Clearly I've got to work on building up my stamina. splitimage |
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3 years 5 months today and 51 days till my 1300 day milestone.
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#450
Really wanting to go to the bar and have a few drinks today, but I won't as I know that would set me off on another bad spiral down.
Booked an appointment to get my hair cut tomorrow. So I need my money for that, so I can't spend it on booze. splitimage |
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#452
greentires,
yeah, I had a dissapointment this week - didn't get a job I thought I had. And I'm still taking my Antabuse, so I won't drink. Just wish it would stop the cravings. Meh. I'll live. |
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I've quit smoking for a month. I felt agitated so I sprayed some nicotine under my tongue but it didn't help.. I keep thinking about my future and life in general.. just makes me frustrated.. I took two gulps of rum then took two benzos..
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#454
I feel so depressed now. I wish I could cry.
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#456
Feel better cuz alcohol wore off quick.
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#458
Desoxyn,
Glad you're still in the game with trying to quit. Glad you're feeling better. Quitting booze is by far the hardest thing I've ever had to do. splitimage |
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#460
Never drinking alcohol again (Yes.. that phrase)..
I feel like I have a headache without the pain. I took benzo but it didn't help. I should take another seroquel but that's probably dangerous to not take as prescribed. So I must suffer.. I guess more water will help? I already drank a lot of that.. or ibuprofen although I don't have a headache.. maybe it will help.. I just want to sleep.. |
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