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Default Jan 19, 2019 at 04:47 PM
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UpDownAround,

Glad that you're through with the surgery, that it went well, and wasn't as extensive as you anticipated.


Glad that the pain med they have you on is working.

I hope you have an easy and speedy recovery.

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Default Jan 23, 2019 at 09:55 PM
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I wish weed didn't make me panic so I could smoke it all day every day

Then I can sit and watch movies instead of multitasking and never finishing one thing and listening to music.
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Default Jan 24, 2019 at 12:31 PM
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Weed makes me go into psychosis it doesn’t matter if it’s hybrid or sativa or indica. Sativa would make me paranoid didn’t matter what I smoked it would happen. CBD on the other hand I like it but it doesn’t like me. Weed did help with the pain for me but being in psychosis 24/7 didn’t help me at all.

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Weed makes me go into psychosis it doesn’t matter if it’s hybrid or sativa or indica. Sativa would make me paranoid didn’t matter what I smoked it would happen. CBD on the other hand I like it but it doesn’t like me. Weed did help with the pain for me but being in psychosis 24/7 didn’t help me at all.
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Default Jan 29, 2019 at 07:33 AM
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Had sort of a wake up call. I'm drinking way too much to the point of not remembering things every weekend. Need to just stop completely, as it doesn't seem I can just have one or two drinks. So. Goodbye, alcohol, I hope. Sobriety: day 2.
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Welcome littleearthquakes. It's great that you recognized your alcohol use was becoming problematic. We're here to support you in your sober journey.
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Default Jan 31, 2019 at 07:16 AM
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I'm a little nervous. I'm almost out of Antabuse, and can't afford to get more right away, as I seriously overspent this month and am going into Feb. with a deficit.


I'm still totally committed to staying sober, it's just going to be a bit harder without that safety net.

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I'm a little nervous. I'm almost out of Antabuse, and can't afford to get more right away, as I seriously overspent this month and am going into Feb. with a deficit.


I'm still totally committed to staying sober, it's just going to be a bit harder without that safety net.

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I understand; I'm also nervous. I went over my prescribed dose of Xanax this month, so I'm having to take less and it's taking a toll on my anxiety this month.
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Default Jan 31, 2019 at 10:22 PM
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Been snorting a small line of 30-40mg ketamine because it wears off after a few days and I get really melancholic or worse, numb. 4 days behind on my Concerta because I'm waiting for the doctor to increase the dose. Filling my lost days in with Vyvanse. Addicted to nicotine spray although I quit smoking 3 months ago. Idk when I can get off the nicotine spray. Drank two drinks of alcohol when skiing even though I knew it would make me feel depressed. Doesn't take much alcohol to do that. Got rid of the DMT because I was afraid that I would use it and then get locked up in the psych ward for the rest of my life. Got rid of the MDMA too. Haven't touched my Ativan. I have 19 left and only use them in case of panic attacks.

I think I'm doing good so far in terms of addiction. It's almost non-existent compared to what it used to be.. The point is to be sober which is why I also want to get off nicotine spray.
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Default Feb 01, 2019 at 08:49 AM
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Made it through a wickedly strong craving yesterday. Distracted myself until it was gone. Feeling proud of myself.
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Well done splitimage!
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I reached 1,300 days today sober from alcohol.

It’s the pits though I have possible kidney stones I have had pain for 2 weeks the hospital thought it was UTI then kidney infection. But it’s definitely Stones my doctor is thinking. I am severe pain the most I have have taken is ibuprofen...nothing more and nothing less.

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Congratulations on hitting 1300 days greentires. That's awesome. I aspire to get into 4 digits on the days.

I am so sorry you have kidney stones. I've heard that they're incredibly painful. I have a friend who gets them periodically.


Are you going to have to have ultrasound treatment to blast them into smaller pieces that can pass?

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Congratulations on hitting 1300 days greentires. That's awesome. I aspire to get into 4 digits on the days.

I am so sorry you have kidney stones. I've heard that they're incredibly painful. I have a friend who gets them periodically.


Are you going to have to have ultrasound treatment to blast them into smaller pieces that can pass?


Well I was at the hospital 4 times first they diagnosed me with UTI then a kidney infection i took antibiotics that made everything worse. I went to my doctors on Thursday and explained or gave him a symptoms list of everything that has happened. And he said he thinks it’s something immune system something or rather. Then I showed him my left flank and it’s swollen like really swollen. But not as much as Monday. I harsh lost weight the easy way puking but it smelled like sulphur which totally means kidneys in my mind last night and every other 2 nights a week. Always seemed to be the nights I receive my meds from the pharmacy on delivery. Yeah so I did my bloodwork yesterday waited hours on end to get it drawn a literal hour between the time I sat down to the time i went in. And about another 20-25 mins before I left. By the time I got home it was 10:50am and I left at 8:15 at my house.

I Thought I would be able to sleep but I feel like crap. Someone keeps texting me and Facebook calling me at 4am it’s now 4:30am. Lol. I went to sleep at 12:30am after I took meds someone dropped off money they owed me at 10:45pm. I wanted to go to bed early but I guess not.

I’m going back to sleep for now.

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Default Feb 02, 2019 at 07:43 PM
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Still tooling along - 587 days now. Not posting as much; starting to really think of myself as a non drinker and about the only time I think about the subject of drinking lately is when I get on a forum to discuss not drinking. It's been several months since I last thought about doing it and even then the urge was easy to kill.

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That's great UpDownAround that you're no longer thinking about drinking. Hope it continues for you.

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So, going for day 1 sober today.

I have been doing better the past few months but ultimately I’m still drinking too much. I managed a week and a half sober in January but in the end I gave in to cravings.

I need to polish up on my coping mechanisms. I’ll get there though. I want to beat this.

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So, going for day 1 sober today.


I have been doing better the past few months but ultimately I’m still drinking too much. I managed a week and a half sober in January but in the end I gave in to cravings.


I need to polish up on my coping mechanisms. I’ll get there though. I want to beat this.


Congrats on ONE day!

Everyday is a day I feel I take for granted because I choose not to drink. But go into a liquor store and buy liquor for those friends who had their wallet stolen. Some times I start shopping for me in the store that’s when I know it’s time to leave and put everything back on the shelves. That’s usually when I get carded at the till 2 pieces of ID they say. I pull it out they were like Oh! I said “ what was it because I put everything back on the shelf or looked at my phone while I was in the store? Or I am look really young? come in Here every second day to buy liquor? Or we always like carding the females instead of the males? That’s okay I guess I will take this as compliment...” they looked at me stunned and had nothing to say I gave her a tip $$ and walked out. I watched her the entire time i was in the liquor store glancing up and down from looking and reading of bottles. Since I am epipen allergic to pineapple and so many alcohols are made with pineapple like vodka. I cannot carry it in a can if another can has exploded on it for instant and if I was in the vicinity of it open drink or can of it I have instant hives. Anyway back to the liquor store I watched as the kids of the street not even 19 legal age to buy came in to buy. They asked me outside the store if I could buy something from behind the counter for them I said no, on the way in and next thing I know they are in the store buying liquor and stealing lemons and limes from the fridge.

Everyone around me drinks and does drugs. I do psych meds they never smoke it in front of me whatever drug of choice it is. They are respectful because I do not do it.

Please whatever you do if you decide to drink mix your hard liquor. Do not I repeat do not drink it straight. It’s hard on the throat, stomach, liver and kidneys. It’s a form of pickling yourself early and too fast for what it’s suppose to be.

Congrats on your first day again!

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I'm turning the big 50 today, and I'm having a really hard time dealing with it. Thanks to combined mental health and addiction issues, my life in no way resembles what I expected it to be at this age.

But at least it will be a sober birthday.

And looking on the bright side, my 40's kind of sucked with the double merrygoround of depression and psych hospitilazations, relapses and rehabs. I feel like it was a wasted decade. So my 50's have to be better, right?

I know it's only a day at a time for me, but I'm looking forward to making this a sober decade.

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