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Default Jul 02, 2018 at 03:54 PM
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I have been addicted to drugs and alcohol for only about 3 years. But I know it has done it's fair share of damage to my life..

My parents kicked me out at and I dropped out of school. I don't like to be sober.. Like ever... I'm honestly a little high right now... but nothing too extreme

I don't want to quit. But I want to want it. I don't really know how to begin that.. My life has been nothing but complication after complication.. and being high and/or drunk helps me not to think about any of it. But I know that's wrong...
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Default Jul 02, 2018 at 05:22 PM
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Hi KylieBear.

The very fact that you have pinpointed destructive habits that you want to change really is half the battle won. Finding strategies and support will be your next hurdle...sounds good on paper, but will take will and tenacity of purpose from you to turn this all around. Also replacing those habits with healthier and desirable habits can be of great help. But I think devising a plan and working toward building a strong support network will go a long way toward getting you headed down a more healthy and positive path.

For those who feel alone, or simply wanting to reach out for a chat without judgement......Psych Central is the place. There are many good listeners here... we're a pretty good bunch.

I have been an active member of this site for 4 years. In that time I have received some really constructive feedback and connected with several others with similar challenges to myself. I have also found hanging out in the Games Forums to be a welcome distraction in times of stress... a great way to clear my head, meet like minded others, and have some well needed fun. New members benefit greatly from perusing the many forums available here...lots to explore.

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I wish only the best for you moving forward ...Please be kind & generous to yourself KylieBear, and welcome to P.C

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Well... as the old saying goes... a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Listen to the words of this song performed by folk legend John McCutcheon. It's a song from the Chinese communist revolution. But it speaks to this idea:

https://youtu.be/089gSM2XmR4

From what I understand of your situation, you're still living with the two young men with whom you got into drugs in the first place. No renewal in your life is going to occur as long as you're living with them. You MUST get out of there. And then, you have to reach out, in real life, for the help you need.

I don't believe you can kick drugs alone. And I don't know where you live, of course, or what resources may be available to you. Perhaps there are not-for-profit or governmental programs, where you live, that can help you. The fact that you're still in your teens may be an advantage there. Once you become an adult, there will likely be many fewer hands held out to help you.

But, you know, this all starts with you. You wrote that you don't want to quit. But you "want to want to." Absolutely nothing is going to change in your life (in my opinion) unless or until you make it happen. One of the biggest fallacies I see people engage in is the search for some magic answer to their problems. They think there's some secret formula out there that, if they could just discover it, would begin to change everything for the better. Well if there is such a formula, I've never even heard of it much less found it. You either make something happen for yourself or it won't happen. It's as simple as that. At least that has been my experience. For better or worse, your life is in your hands. That's both the good news & the bad news at the same time.

I once heard it said: "No matter how far you've travelled down the wrong road... turn back!" You can't change anything that has occurred up to & including the present moment. But you can change your future. I send a whole basket of warm hugs your way with the hope that you will find a way to do so...

P.S. Here's a link to an article by our host Dr. John Grohol, Psy.D. on the subject of how to let go of a painful past. Perhaps some of what Dr. Grohol has to say can be of some help:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/learni...ys-to-move-on/

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Default Jul 02, 2018 at 07:43 PM
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I've been feeling this way only recently. I "tried" to quit before, but it was useless.. I know I have easy access to it now, but I don't really have anywhere else to go.. I would like us all to get better. My guys have jobs.. it's just me that is pretty useless..

I guess I'm just bored with it.. just the same bull, different day..

Im sorry if it makes no sense...
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Default Jul 10, 2018 at 08:34 PM
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Trying to quit is part of succeeding in quitting. It can take more than one try, but you can learn from each try and each try brings you closer to success.

Hang in there! What is a step you can take today to help you move forward?
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Red face Jul 16, 2018 at 09:58 PM
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one day at a time. HAMS is a place that you could learn to reduce your intake and less harm to yourself and others. If you got clean then perhaps you could get a job?
Is that something you wish to do?
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