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I've been sober from alcohol for 23 months. I was a late-stage alcoholic. I went all the way down to the actual gutter. But no major health issues, like my liver, etc. But the worst part is, reality hits you BAM in the face. All my past traumas that I had deeply buried now all resurfaced. They haunt my every waking hour. Im also afraid I have some different personality disorders that caused me to start drinking in the first place. So reality is tough. I'm not even happy I'm sober cuz my messed-up head continues to hinder me as a functional human being. I'm so screwed up. I'm terrified of all the things that could be wrong with my brain & my way of thinking! I'm glad I found this site and that it's on Tapatalk. I'm pretty much a brand new member here. I hope some nice member here has advice for me. I'm completely alone, also. I have zero friends. I'm living in an empty desert. Thanks for reading & have a good day.
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Thank you for sharing.
I am sorry that you are feeling alone.
Do you have insurance? It sounds like you could really need a professional to help you with these thoughts and feelings from past traumas.
We are not professionals here.
Congratulations on the 23 months sober that is quite an accomplishment, that you can feel proud of.
I continue to post here and check daily I will keep an eye for a response from you. Let me know how I can support you best.
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I've been sober from alcohol for 23 months. I was a late-stage alcoholic. I went all the way down to the actual gutter. But no major health issues, like my liver, etc. But the worst part is, reality hits you BAM in the face. All my past traumas that I had deeply buried now all resurfaced. They haunt my every waking hour. Im also afraid I have some different personality disorders that caused me to start drinking in the first place. So reality is tough. I'm not even happy I'm sober cuz my messed-up head continues to hinder me as a functional human being. I'm so screwed up. I'm terrified of all the things that could be wrong with my brain & my way of thinking! I'm glad I found this site and that it's on Tapatalk. I'm pretty much a brand new member here. I hope some nice member here has advice for me. I'm completely alone, also. I have zero friends. I'm living in an empty desert. Thanks for reading & have a good day.
Wish I knew something easy that would help but I don't. Only thing I can think of is to maybe take one memory at a time and shove the rest to the right of some virtual bookend. And take it easy even with that memory. My thoughts are with you.
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Members bizi and Mopey...Thank u both so much for your kind replies to me. bizi, I don't have insurance unfortunately. And Mopey, that's a great idea to take things slow, one day at a time. That's an AA motto, actually. I think everything comes rushing back with sobriety. Cuz now my brain is clear from a daily fog of alcoholism. There's an excellent alcoholism recovery forum I found. I've been meaning to log back in there. There's members there who've been recovered from alcoholism for 20+ years. They'd have some valuable/helpful info. for me, I'm sure. Cuz some of my problems are due to alcoholism. That crap is really a monster, tho. I actually stay away from that alcohol website cuz it seemed to trigger me to want to drink. Cuz that's all that's discussed. Now I've been sober a much longer period of time, tho. So I might try site again. bizi, your reply was very caring & I appreciate it. This seems like a wonderful website to me. I will keep reading here to help myself. Thank u both again. Have a good day/night & Stay Great!
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If you belonged to some church they have(usually) some sort of counseling service. I went to a baptist counseling service a while ago and they charge on a sliding scale. Started at $10 an hour.
I was going to a NAMI support group and that is where I got the name of that particular therapist.
I am sorry it is so hard for you right now....it will get easier once you work thru some of your memories.
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I hear what you're saying. After my ex and I broke up I binged hard for quite awhile. It was until I met my current that I slowly sobered up (been sober 8 mo. now) and all this emotional backlog has come rushing back, I feel like I'm in the midsts of my darkest days as a teenager and its driving me and everyone around me bloody crazy! My advice, get a Therapist. Write it down. Do anything you need to do to channel those thoughts into something positive.
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I hear what you're saying. After my ex and I broke up I binged hard for quite awhile. It was until I met my current that I slowly sobered up (been sober 8 mo. now) and all this emotional backlog has come rushing back, I feel like I'm in the midsts of my darkest days as a teenager and its driving me and everyone around me bloody crazy! My advice, get a Therapist. Write it down. Do anything you need to do to channel those thoughts into something positive.
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23 months of sobriety is a great accomplishment... don't downplay it, be proud of yourself I'm sorry you're struggling
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U are so great, I told u! Sober from alcohol & past traumas resurfaceSober from alcohol & past traumas resurface I've been craving alcohol & want to go buy some tomorrow. November I am 24 months sober, I think? Cravings can be worked thru, tho. Like I can pour myself into my artwork. Would be a much better idea than buying that garbage. It solves nothing. Alcohol causes a ton more problems to deal with. I'll get over this. Thanks so much, bizi Sober from alcohol & past traumas resurface
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