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Desoxyn
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#521
I have a rare opinion about addiction.
Short, I was an impulsive reck. And I've built my life, trying to get away from that place.. Psilocybin is definitely preferred to be done with a professional therapist.. But it happened. I advise strong caution (The most severe of cautions), as a bad trip can happen. And it did. Many years later, I didn't focus on the drugs.. I explored, and gained/retained responsibility... Awareness.. Many things.. Spirituality etc.. I would like to make some type of career - Such as neuroscience, psychology, pharmacology (Neuropsychopharmacology) - But that is just a type of dream. I'd like to heal my own trauma... And then help others, with their trauma.. Trauma is the cause. Most people have trauma, in this life.. Some have it so bad - So it is, that the harder the heroin is slammed, into the veins... |
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MuddyBoots
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#522
I graduated from IOP this week. Now I'm just on the ACT co-occurring disorders treatment team (which is the basics for me so yay! )
I became really close to someone I met in residential and he let me stay at his place for a few nights to get away from my house/neighborhood (lots of drug/alcohol use), but I have to be home Monday to see my case manager whom I will be discussing alternative living options with. __________________ If any chord that I could strum Make me feel less like a man I'd slam my fingers in the doorway And shatter all the bones So I could never strum again |
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#523
"Is it me or the booze that really gets wasted?"
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#524
Well, ****, I knew coming back home would be a bad idea.
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#525
this isn't fun anymore. Now I just feel like a slave to the chemicals.
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#526
I am beginning to contemplate making a self-referral to the local addictions center.
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#527
__________________ If any chord that I could strum Make me feel less like a man I'd slam my fingers in the doorway And shatter all the bones So I could never strum again |
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#528
I had a drunk dream lat night for the first time in ages. It was very realistic and disturbing.
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#529
Tomorrow's 50 days sober
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Desoxyn
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#530
Simply not taking any drug that effects my heart (Mostly serotonergics are the problem - Such as psilocybin, LSD and DMT - GHB also makes heart beat weird, so no more of those).
The meds I've tried that give me heart palps are also serotonergic (Such as Zoloft, Prozac, Lexapro, Seroquel and Remeron). Also "Tianeptine" - I threw that away. I've been doing good - Need Hydromorph-CONTINs.. Idk.. Last summer I snorted the 10x 8mg Dilaudids, and left it as that for 6+ months. I drank alcohol ~15 times in over a year (In all of 2022, I drank 1-2 double shots once per afternoon), and weed. I smoked weed recently, and it made me really paranoid. I'm giving the weed (That my moms friend gave to me as a gift), as a gift to someone else. |
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#531
When I feel bad, I reach for the ketamine.
I wish to stop doing all of these things. I need support or I won't be able to do the things I want. I've decided to quit now. At least I plan to stop before I turn 30. |
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#532
it’s taken a long time to breaking my addiction.
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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