Stopping Yourself

Staying with a friend for a little bit while I'm in the city until GF and kids come over.

The friend does drugs. Not often and not at home, and I know loads of people who do/did drugs, but I'm not sober right now (failed again) and he's really lousy at hiding them and I know where they are all. I want to go find them and take right now so bad.

Plus I checked out his medicine cabinet (I'm awful ) and he has the prescription painkillers I crave too. I took a few of them last night and wound up sick this morning but I don't think he noticed I took them. It would be so easy to slink into his bathroom and grab a bunch, then go to his room where he keeps the rest of them and grab those.

Couldn't he at least hide them better? Told my GF on the phone and she says I should stay with another mutual friend earlier then planned (they're coming over here soon and we were all going to stay with a rather responsible friend for a bit as moving stuff gets settled) but I almost don't want to because I get SUCH each access.

I don't know HOW you achieve being clean & sober. I just keep giving up.

You are in a tuff situation. Get out of that apartment and go to a meeting or whatever it is you do that supports you. Hope you find a way out of this destructive mode and caveliere attitude about it. Good luck.

You are in a tuff situation. Get out of that apartment and go to a meeting or whatever it is you do that supports you. Hope you find a way out of this destructive mode and cavalier attitude about it. Good luck.

(((((((((((((( griffe )))))))))))))))

(no advice, just support, useless at advice anyway)

((fuzzy))) you are not useless at advice dear hearted person... and we love you anyway..

Griffe, it helps to decide to be healthy if you can do that... abuse is a form of harm, and harm is not healing.. choosing healthy patterns and choices begins and ends with yourself.. decide that you are worth it.. you will find out it is true after youve successfully tried... its really as simple as choosing health.. then the work of staying healthy begins... that too can be fun.. choose to be optmistic about your decision to have good health.. that will improve your chances greatly.. break old habits and patterns, avoid 'using' friends til you get some bearings... best of luck to you always.. oh, and its hard, but you can do it!

Griffe,

Beating any addiction is really hard. I wasn't able to do it alone. I went through rehab twice plus had great support from my T, pdoc, and addictions Dr., and I go to AA regularly as well as an addictions treatment group once a week at a hospital. I need that much support to stay sober.

You have to really want to be clean and sober because it's really hard work. Getting sober was the hardest thing I've ever done. But it's also the best thing I've ever done. Only you can make the decision of how badly you want it for yourself. If you decide you want it, get away from people who use or have substances around. Talk to your Dr. about treatment options if that's necessary. Go to AA/NA meetings for support. You don't have to do it alone. There are people willing to help if you want it.

All the best.

Splitimage

(((((((((Griffe/Vince)))))))))))))

Getting out of the way of temptation is a good step. I think your gf might have a good idea, in you choosing to be staying elsewhere right now.

Sometimes we need to change our friends or the ways in which we interact with others if they're "bad" for us and will enable us to continue with our same destructive patterns. (Like me for instance, hanging out with some of my guy friends now in a bar might not be a good thing, because I may wind up drinking and I'm trying to quit).

Don't give up. Reach out for support. Ask your T, or a doctor, or spend more time with clean and sober friends for support. If you're looking into quitting (seriously) you can always consider AA or any other way of quitting (there are quite a few, some self-directed and some as a group process).

I'll admit though, the first while is the hardest, because the substances in the system slowly leave. It's withdrawal. That's never fun, but if you can get through that... you're much better prepared to deal with everything else.

You have to be careful of people, places & things. You don't go in the barber shop and not get a haircut!

When you join a 12 step program those are your new friends. Those are the people you hang with. They are the people that really care about you.

If this so called friend was really a friend, he would not have had drugs so easy for you to find.

The hardest part of my recovery was saying no to the so called friends I partied with. They no longer call me.

I even do not see parts of my family. I don't go to family for Christmas because of the alcohol.

Recovery has to be #1 in your life.

Good Luck! Make it Simple!