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Lol I was actually banking on you saying your that your dad was deceased. Ah well......
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Default Oct 20, 2019 at 09:57 PM
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Lool noooo don't be crazy

And AD endorses this XD

Omg just no... I love you guys

My dad joined the hells angels and they were gonna kill him. It's a funny story.
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My dad joined the hells angels and they were gonna kill him. It's a funny story.
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Lool noooo don't be crazy

My dad joined the hells angels and they were gonna kill him. It's a funny story.
Tell us about this story.
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Ok that's it.. I'm putting you guys back in your cages XD

I shouldn't tell the story to anyone lol
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Good luck with that.
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Default Oct 22, 2019 at 04:23 PM
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Ok that's it.. I'm putting you guys back in your cages XD

I shouldn't tell the story to anyone lol
Aww.....and it was just starting to get interesting.
Come back and play with us Desoxyn, promise we won't bite. 😏
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There is no greater feeling than love

But it splits into a darkness and they swirl around each other. That's basically it. That's all it is. Inside and outside.

Everything we imagine in our minds is real in another universe or dimension. And everything we are is imagined by a space squid burning in the fire of my house for insurance money so I can buy a nice shiny sports car. But it all doesn't matter..

I have to learn to be a little sociopathic to become a millionaire in 10 or less years and do fraud, identity theft (Jk mods) and study investing... cryptocurrency..

Because nothing is exact. That's what people don't get. But they can't be like "I analyse this.. and then everything is meaningless and there's no point to anything so why even move?"

Socio's move. They want. I want too.

But do you feel the pain inside you when you watch your family member fall down the stairs?

Is laughter the opposite of fear? Because when I smoke pot, I can't laugh.. And I get scared.. and when people laugh, I don't trust them and think they're laughing at me. Is trust needed for love?

What about fake trust? It can manipulate, but the feeling underlying is need and fear within the self, an internal breaking of the ego and then the socio transforms the person.

Anger always likes to be justified.. those people stealing women and causing terrorism.. "I'm happy they're being bombed" but brainwashing from the government is all too real.. Praise a flag and kill before they kill you.. Or you can be a buddhist monk and not want to step on a blade of grass because you are destroying life..

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18 years with highly narcissistic husband

"My narcissist is undiagnosed, but fits every behavior and personality trait in the diagnostic manual.

I can only relay my experience doing psychedelics (LSD) with him, so may not be typical.

Like most people who trip, he was fascinated by the magnification of perceptions, the visual beauty, the tactile sensations, and the intangible perception of his place in the universe.

It was one of the only times, in 17 years, that I looked into his eyes and saw a clear view of “him.” The cloudy, blank eyes became like amber crystals, beaming at me, saying, “I finally see you.”

He was in touch with me, and our adult daughter in a way I had never seen. It was as if he felt my needs or feelings even better than a “normal” person would. He jumped to get me a drink before I could finish the sentence, “I need a dri…..” He was downright nervous over the needs or wants of myself and my kids. For once, I was the one telling him that they were fine, when before, it was him telling me they were fine when they clearly were not. I was astounded.

Needless to say, after years of abuse and neglect, I was ecstatic. I thought I had found the magic cure to the damaged narcissist. That night was the only light in my years of struggling to find him, and connect with him.

And he was thrilled, saying he was going to remember the feeling, the mindset, the new philosophy on life that had been opened to him.

That lasted about a month after the trip, degrading slowly into the old pattern. The only explanation I have is that narcs love novelty as fuel. They are pathologically bored, and always looking for a new fix to alleviate the feeling of non-being that they usually buffer by using people as supply. But, alas, it wasn’t enough to destroy those pesky defense mechanisms that every narc is so comfortable with, or the nasty beliefs that everybody is a competitor.

Ultimately, I think narcs are on a scale, and the reaction they have to psychedelics is probably dependent on the age they were stunted. Mine had a few decent years with a decent father figure before being damaged, so maybe he drew from that experience. I don’t know. But he is back to his old self now. And that only makes it harder for me to think of him as the abusive asshole that he is, because I remember that one night that he saw me, and I saw him, and I know it is in there. But it isn’t enough."
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Nah psychedelics don't do anything to you guys with 2 minutes of research. That narcissist acted.

Only if you WANT to change. And why? Maybe see something different..

Unconditional positive regard is where people are perfect the way they are, and do things for reasons.. to not judge..

But people don't realize. Only me. Hyper-mentalist.
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Bizarre things happen.. there's glitches and bugs that people don't notice.. you can take things with you.. ideas happen from dream like states..

Does it matter? You can use reality to change peoples thoughts to lure them in and people do it all the time but what if apathy is involved? There's certain elements outside the boredom that I'm interested in.. Not some play .... I've always hated puppets.. They pissed me off as a kid.
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The molecules in your brain is like a fish tank. Floating. Zap zap zap MISFIRE? That's what happens to me.

But some misfires are the zaps in the people if they get into your mind.

We are all that we meet. But what about you?

I'm sorry. I'm lacking sleep. I misunderstand the shadows. But the shadow people have always been my friends.
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It's like the theme of a western movie basically

Cuz in an unrelated note, I just look at tv and i see people talking about stupid stuff.. about trump.. and then there's people watching it.. vegetating.. I just take a glance and say hoollyy faaak.. why?

And the people wearing certain jeans and talking about it for half an hour?

That's how you feel about certain things in the theme. The theme is all that matters.

Yet you take everything into consideration and there's things that you have to ignore. The right things. And that's what matters.
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What is love?
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What is love?
Books are written on it, songs, movies, people showing it to each other...

The meaning is to be explained..

But people trick and use
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Not everyone thinks love is the answer.
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There's people that aren't sociopaths and I think they are bad people. Those are the real people that **** me up. With their judgements and blind assumptions after just meeting me and thinking they're better me.

Stupid people is what I'm talking about.

At least sociopaths fake it but they're faking it so much that they kind of believe it if they know me.
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"Though we judge for many reasons, we often do it when:

We don’t know a person well (yet)
We cannot identify with a person’s belief system, values, or behavior
That person somehow threatens how we perceive ourselves"

"But what we can learn is that our judgments mostly have to do with us, not the people we judge, and the same is true when others judge us.

In most cases, we judge others in order to feel better about ourselves, because we are lacking self-acceptance and self-love."

"If we could learn to embrace ourselves as we truly are, would we still be so judgmental toward others? Most likely not. We would no longer need a reason to put someone else down just to raise ourselves up.

This is only one of the many reasons why self-love is so important and powerful. If we could all learn to love ourselves, we would make our world a much more compassionate and much less judgmental place."

OK ok I get it now. But you socio's get that idk.. You guys love yourself and I did before that person judged me and made up crap about me.

I know a woman that has really low self esteem and she judges everyone. I always said that I don't judge much cuz I love me. But that person ****ed me up but I get it...
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Do you really think being an egocentric asshole is the same thing as self-love?
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Lol what kind of drugs are you using?
Asking for a friend. 😏
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