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#421
I'm so very anxious today. I feel it in all my body. I can't do this anymore. I feel like it hurts everywhere. I really want someone to hug me, to calm me, to tell me that everything will be all right. Every morning this feeling, I can't take it anymore. The night is all right, but the night ends. I don't want the morning to come. I don't sleep well anymore. I don't eat much anymore. Food disgusts me. I have no hunger. I'm so scared of losing it all.
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#422
I am o Clonazapam and it really works for me, although i take it at night and it knocks me out and make my chest harder to breathe, but i fall asleep with my sleep apnea machine and the chest pressure goes away with the machine.
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#423
Doing better today. Did four loads of laundry, helped with breakfast and lunch, unloaded and reloaded the dishwasher, and helped the kids with packing.
I'm actually feeling pretty good until about a half-hour ago, when I started feeling jittery. I took my afternoon med so will see if it calms down. I got myself to ¾ of the muscle relaxer so I'm not drowsy. Hope the jitters will go away so I can cook dinner. |
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#424
I’m anxious my appointments won’t be on time and I’ll be late for work tomorrow. There’s no anxiety about work, just about running late and the appointments themselves.
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#425
I'm alright, just feeling a bit jittery about taking a shower
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#426
Mornings are just the worst. After waking up felt very anxious again. Now in the afternoon it's getting better. Work was better today than Friday. At work I was confronted with people who seemed to suffer worse anxiety issues than I do. I tried to help the best I could, but it's not easy. Tomorrow I don't work. I have a course in the morning in another city. It's in the morning, so I'm not looking forward. I know I'm going to have a lot of anxiety again. On the other hand, if I did not have the course I would be home alone all they which is also a recipe for disaster. Difficult!
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#427
Poor daughter only had 1½ hours of sleep after driving with her best friend down to Kentucky to send his brother off to school. Her boyfriend is making Szechuan pork stir-fry for lunch so I'm staying out of the kitchen. Thankfully my husband and I already had lunch.
Really restless later this morning so I cleaned out the portable AC unit and swept the hallway and kitchen. At least I got my husband to get us drinks and treats so I can get out of the house for a while. I also was doing some writing. Now playing with music while waiting for gabapentin to kick in. I have a feeling I may have to change when to take some of my supplements so my other meds can work better. Other than the restlessness I'm doing okay. I'll make dinner if the kitchen hasn't exploded by then with all the spicy stuff. |
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#428
I'm not feeling anxious today which I think is a very good thing. I plan to check in everyday so I can keep track of when I do feel anxiety so I can see the pattern and notice if anything sets it off.
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#429
Very anxious today. Not sure if I'll ever lose this feeling! I drove to a park earlier today and started reading the Book of Psalms. I thought i might find some comfort, but instead I felt even more abandoned than I already was feeling!
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#430
I woke up 10 minutes before we had to leave for my first appointment. I knew that would happen. But I just took a shower after the blood test. So it worked out. I got out of my second appointment more then half an hour before my shift started.
But my anxiety was really high today. I felt like my blood pressure was through the roof. My heart was pounding almost all day. I lifted a heavy table at work. My heart was beating fast and I was sweating. I was worried I was going to have a heart attack. I feel better now though. |
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#431
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So yes, with the aid of Clonazepam, I've been doing a bit better. Stressors are still there though and im tired so it doesn't take it all away. Would be weird if it did, I think. I dunno. I'm tired. Been on and off a sleep aid as well. It helps. It's practically necessary these days, but I'm not wanting to take too many drugs without supervision. Was supposed to try for a few days then stop, I think. See the pdoc this week. __________________ Celexa (Citalopram) 20mg Levothyroxine .75mg Liothyronine 5MCG (2x daily) Probiotics And a whole slew of vitamin and herbal supplements. |
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#432
Wow I am in the midst of panic. I can feel my body full of adrenaline, and I'm shaking.. I'm anxious about going to work, about my nursing exam tomorrow, about restricting calories, sleeping, and fighting the urges to drink.. and I don't know how to turn these thoughts down. It's just all consuming and I have no capacity in my brain to think about anything else.
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#433
What a busy day!
Woke up to my husband being angry that my daughter left a glob of hair dye on the hardwood floor in the half bath. A lot of vinegar and baking soda, and some sanding, later and the stain is out. However we can't just put a dab of polyurethane on the spot and call it good. My husband said we'll have to have all the floor sanded down and refinished. Another house expense I didn't see coming. My appointment with pain management doc went well, but in all the hubbub of this morning I forgot to take my muscle relaxer so I was in a bit of pain. I told him about the swelling on the neck and how I stopped PT until I had that resolved. He gave me another referral so I can do that. I'm good on meds so I'll see him in two months. The place was broiling, so I came home and took a shower before lunch and my appointment with trauma T. That was really good. Progressive muscle relaxation and guided mediation after that really calmed me down. I hope she makes a CD of that--apparently a lot of clients asked that. Came home again and tried a new strawberry shortcake recipe after unloading the dishwasher. Taking a short break before starting dinner--whew! I was nervous about the hair dye stain but much better after some physical work and meditation I feel pretty good. Just hope I sleep well tonight. |
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#434
Had a mini panic attack at my pdoc appointment today. Otherwise I wasn't too anxious.
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#435
A bit busy this afternoon through now doing Excel assignments for my college class. I'm going to stop soon so I could shower and relax.
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#436
Still having restlessness but keeping myself busy with things.
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#437
^Restlessness and anxiety could be from different things if I understand it correctly, but you tend to update on it all. Guess sometimes i do too, so its cool. But I'd say I have restlessness and anxiety or just one or the other.
Didn't really have much anxiety today. Maybe I was restless. I was definitely irritable from afternoon through evening. But no, I didn't need Clonazepam. At least i didn't take it. Pdoc says I can use the sleep aid daily, if needed so that reassured me. Also worried about talking about some dark stuff with her, but I did it and she validated it. Feeling a little better and I got my AD prescription back. Technically I still had/have the Zoloft, but now I can take it again (I've permission). Will update on that as I use it. __________________ Celexa (Citalopram) 20mg Levothyroxine .75mg Liothyronine 5MCG (2x daily) Probiotics And a whole slew of vitamin and herbal supplements. |
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#438
I didn't sleep well last night. Maybe only 2-3 hours. Woke up a few times with tachycardia. I need to stop making myself crazy. I have problems in my life that should normally be solvable, yet in my mind they are impossible barriers (I'm the only one thinking that).
Yesterday I had to block my credit card because my data has been stolen (including 800€). It was just that little bit I needed to go full crazy in my mind. I feel shame, yet I should not be ashamed. I have my emotions interfering with my rational thoughts. I'm looking a lot at old pictures, thinking how easy life used to be. Probably not realizing the problems I had back then. Will this every stop? When will I be happy with the things I have in my life? |
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#439
I feel that my heart beat is irregular every single day and it's kinda creeping me out. I am on an analeptic and betablocker as well. But my irregular heartbeat won't go. Is that why my pupils dilate and palpitate all the time?
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#440
I have a lot of anxiety right now. It is impossible to pick up the phone and for the life of me I can't bring myself to listen to my voice mails.
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