[xmascarol]

I dont know what or why this is happening but I am feeling so depressed I want to cry so bad matter of fact whenever I do start to cry the tears just dont come out.I think it is because it is the holiday season,plus I miss my mom like crazy.Perhaps this sounds like I am crazy but I have cried out for my mom.Besides that my neighbor giving me a hard time she dont get my mental illness .I dont know how many times I have to explain myself to everyone but it is getting sickening.I do have depression and bipolar along with anxieties ,mood swings and panic attacks,staying inside all the time doesnt help either.I feel like I am in jail.Does anyone get that feeling like you are in jail cant do anything.

Take a few deep breaths. What is holding you back? Why can't you accomplish what you 'set out to accomplish'? I am sorry that you feel this way. When I feel down I listen to cheery music. Music almost always helps me feel better. That and knowing tomorrow is another day

[Skeezyks]

I stay at home pretty-much all the time except that I take our dog out for his afternoon walk each day. (We're generally out walking for around 45 minutes.) And I go out with my wife when it's necessary. Sometimes I begin to feel a bit claustrophobic. But I also know there's really nothing to go out for. So, if I did go out, I'd just be going out to go out, which seems kind-of pointless. I do think the time of year can contribute to depression & anxiety. Here where I live it's beginning to get dark by around 4:30 in the afternoon now. That makes for short days & long nights. I do try to keep myself occupied around the house.