[WishfulThinker66]

I wish I wasn't but this is the usual pattern and it happened again last night. I feel relieved and upset all at the same time.

The pattern? I quit jobs.

I find a job. I like it at first. I put in the best effort I can to be perfect and not get into trouble. This results in getting noticed and then being given additional responsibilities and duties. This results in increased pressure on me to perform at a high level. The anxiety increases exponentially to the point it consumes my life. Eventually I am having panic attacks. Eventually I am driven to the point I can't continue and I quit.

I find a job. I like it at first..... and so on and so on and so on.

[sarahsweets]

In the past I would have said...maybe to being a quitter. At some points it was vital and absolutely necessary to preserve my mental well being. So quitting was a responsible choice. in other situations I quit because I damn well didnt want to do that job. I think we put so much negative energy into things we do to preserve our well being. What is wrong with "being a quitter"? Who cares beyond me? Who made the rules of life I am supposed to follow?

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry, WishfulThinker66 I can relate to your struggles. Unfortunately this is the way anxiety works. You do everything you can to avoid feeling anxiety, but the more you try, the more stressed you become. It sucks. I think we need to learn how to break the cycle somehow. It certainly isn't easy. It definitely isn't easy for me. I'm sorry you're experiencing this as well. I hope things will get better for you soon. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you

[Mountaindewed]

WishfulThinker66, did you work in retail? Sorry, if I’m being nosy. I’m just curious.

The only jobs I’ve worked have been in grocery or in retail. I quit my job in grocery because of the customers. My last job in retail had been going good until my boss got weird. I feel comfortable at my current job. I’ve been feeling really anxious lately, but it’s not work related. And it’s not affecting me at work. But I can’t for the life of me figure out why I am so anxious, when I have everything going for me right down to the fact that I have 3 vacations lined up this year. I have absolutely nothing to be anxious about, yet I feel really bad for some reason.

[WishfulThinker66]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

WishfulThinker66, did you work in retail? Sorry, if I’m being nosy. I’m just curious......

Bang on! How very astute of you.

Thanks to you - and all - for your kind and supportive answers. I feel validated in my feelings a little better now.

yes I am.

if I can't get it right first time, that's it- I am very impatient

if their's something I want, I'd rather not have it if it means trying to do things you just can't get right- certainly one of my downfalls

the only acception to this is my music.

if their is a song I want to download, and I can't find it, I will walk to the end of the earth until it is found.

I am very impressed with my collection of music files. perhaps not as good as it could be (I know it's not, their's loads of music I don't have in my collection), but seeing as some songs took me a full 4 years to find, I guess that makes it a good collection

lol

I should addd some of these are instrimentals and forign songs where I couldn't rely on lyrics to find them

Yes. I cannot deal with my emotions when I fail in any situation, especially in a social situation. I also have a high level of anxiety of the possibility of failing, which prevents me from even trying to do anything.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by WishfulThinker66

Bang on! How very astute of you.

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After googling the word astute, I am sorry if I was rude. I know retail can suck.

[sarahsweets]

I was thinking about this...who said quitting is easy? I dont necessarily think it is. Its not about giving in its about moving on..

[Reagan85]

Yes, I am definitely a quitter, and I hate that, but I have an undeniable pattern of starting things but never finishing them. :-)

[WishfulThinker66]

Originally Posted by sarahsweets

I was thinking about this...who said quitting is easy? I dont necessarily think it is. Its not about giving in its about moving on..

Quitting this time was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.

[WishfulThinker66]

Originally Posted by sarahsweets

I was thinking about this...who said quitting is easy? I dont necessarily think it is. Its not about giving in its about moving on..

You are absolutely correct Sarahsweets! This has never been easy to do. I don't consider it a cop-out either.