Introverted & stressed about plans

Hi all, my story is long as are others so ill try to keep it short. I am going through a LOT and life is pretty good! But, I am tapering off Lamictal right now, just a few days in, from 100mg to now 75mg. I am in the process of TTC a baby, and want to go off as many meds as possible.. I don't feel well today & am working from home (its technically my day off today, and my cleaning / "me" day) I am very protective over this day and lately life has been crazy. My husband & I are offering on a house, we are both excelling @ work. However, I work w/ 2 total extroverts. They always try to rope me into plans (drinks after work for ex). I signed up for this paint night that I had gotten out of last time, but this time signed up thinking it sounded fun, but I know it is going to be totally social (despite the painting) it is at a bar, with alcohol which I'm trying to avoid lately also. So.... I used a easy excuse that I needed to meet w/ my real estate agent about our new home purchase (not entirely untrue, just that we are more or less meeting virtually lol) I hate that I have to lie. I told husband my struggle with this. He gets it, he hates social activities w/ co-workers I don't hate it but I need a lot of convincing, and if I need my time, that is the first thing I will be happy to avoid or ditch. I just don't want my boss to get mad at me b/c I am a bit flaky w/ things like that. As for work work, I am a good hard worker. Its the social stuff that annoys me :/ I am going to start managing a new office, so I know my boss has a lot of faith in me. Im also trying to have a baby w/ my husband and we are starting IVF next month. So there is a lot of stuff going on.
So I guess cancelling a plan or 2 sometimes is just going to happen when you have my kind of mental issues and I need to forgive myself. I just feel bad and hate when I am wishy washy or seem flaky. :/

I also have a lot of fears about socializing, but have done a good job of facing my fears. I just hope getting off lamictal doesn't trigger me in my mood or my anxiety too much
thanks for listening.

I'm so sorry you're feeling stressed, SilverSprings It sounds like you're handling all of this pretty well. Socializing is hard. You're definitely not alone in this. However you don't have any obligation to engage in social events that involve alcohol if you don't want. Especially since you're planning onhaving a baby soon. Just try to focus on yourself at the moment. It sounds like you're very busy. Remember to take some time for yourself as well! We need to relax once in a while. You've got this. I hope you'll feel better soon. Remember that we're here for you. Keep writing here if it help. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you

I totally get you. I am an extrovert and even I have gotten cold feet over something I agreed to. Are you worrying about a white lie? I personally wouldnt because you DO have a lot of ***** going on now that needs your attention. I dont work now but it was hard to say no when I did. I just got good at respectfully saying no.

Thanks everyone I appreciate the support!! 🙂🙂🙂