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Member Since Apr 2019
Location: Batesburg, SC
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I have had anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. I can't bring myself to go to a therapist. I have been dealing with a lot with my physical health lately. I was just hospitalized for potentially having a heart attack or PE blood clot. No, there is nothing wring with me, except for fibromyalgia and hypertension. But, lately, all I can think about is how badly I want to have these serious illnesses just for the attention. I cant bring myself to talk to anyone because I dont want people to feel bad for me, but when the doctors told me I didnt have a heart attack, a blood clot, or anything else i was so upset. I wanted these things to happen to me. But I dont know why. I used to pray to god i would develop cancer or some serious illness just for the attention. I feel crazy for admitting it, but its true...
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Member Since Jul 2019
Location: Iowa
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I have felt this honestly too and I have had cancer. I was hospitalized both for cancer and both for depression. When I was hospitalized for cancer everyone was so kind and caring, but when I was hospitalized for depression people were upset with me or would not talk to me at all. It shows that there is a big stigma still on mental illness.
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