Good and funny thoughts about my late mom.just a bit anxious too

Hi as you know my mom has been gone for almost a year.Sure she abused me physical which one time she nearly poked my eye out from wresting me on the bed.However she had some funny things about her too,When I was a kid one time she and my dad played a joke on us kids,especially my cousin she went to go into bed one night and some grabbed her feet it was my mom hiding underneath the bed and my dad he went outside and was looking at me through the window talked about being scared.One time my mom but some stuff in the sugar bowl to make it fizzle so when my cousin went to use it she thought it was sugar but the stuff all started to boil,we never laughed so hard.Now she and my dad are long gone,I am trying to think of some happy thoughts today since tomorrow is my first Easter without my mom.However when I first got up this morning I had such awful anxieties I had to take two pills to calm myself down and I fell asleep but I am feeling so much better.I remember when my mom us to stuff our Easter baskets.It is so hard now without her and my dad,but sometimes just thinking funny thoughts about them makes me happy.Hugs to everyone here

Hi xmascarol. I am sorry for the loss of your parents and the difficult challenging time you had with them.

It is not easy losing parents. It seems like when my dad died I had to reinvent who I was. All the dreams of changing him or him becoming the dream parent I hoped for in the back of my mind went crashing down. I had to start new things in my life, almost like starting over.

I like to laugh and focus on the fun memories. That is what keeps me from taking everything too seriously. It helps me not get trapped in the past.

I am really impressed how you are able to look past the ugly memories and see the better half. Way to go!

Hope your Easter brings joy to others and to you.

Thinking about the good times brings me a lot of joy because whenever I think of the bad times my depression get so had I get into a deep depression,Happy Easter to you

Happy Easter to you!

It’s good to reflect back on happy memories. You also remember yourself in them. They are all part of life and who we are.

Happy Easter!

I am glad you can focus on the good memories. Hugs

xmascarol,
It sounds like you are grieving after a big loss. Some people find that they can cope on their own but some find support groups or therapists help.

Hope you can keep finding some joy amid all the grief.

CANDC

What makes me so sad is that they sold my moms house.They are painting inside they have a baby,I just cannot stand the thought of someone else living in my parents house.Just the though of them even in my house sleeping in the same room I slept makes me ill.