I was crying because I am scared

I was very depressed today.I feel so useless.All I did was lay down and cry.I feel like I am a bad person,God all I did the other day was fall and now I am so afraid to even get up.It was so hard for me because I use to call my mother whenever something happened.I cried the day I fell and nobody came.Funny they can hear me yelling when I just yell but when I was crying for help these people couldnt even come to see if I was alright, I mean my back door and screen were open and I had the window opened in my living room,I bet someone went and called the ***** of a land lady. I dont know why I just feel so all alone,I have to do everything on my own now been this way for 15 years and I am still not use to it.All I know is having anxieties ,and phobias is not helping any.I am sick of being scared.I have no help at with the people who lived here,I know they couldnt have picked me up but still they could have just check and call for help but no.If I could and hear someone crying for help if I could I would be there to check them out I get nothing. However they all know now that I fell. People talk around here.I am not a vicious person but I hope they get theres let them know how it feels to be ignored sorry but this is the way I feel .yes I am mad.I been doing nothing but sleeping all day long.for the past 2 days..

I think, as we get older, it takes longer to get over experiences like the fall you took. At least that is the case for me. I hope you begin feeling better soon.

Thank you ,you know what I had an awful nightmare last night I dreamt that I had fallen really bad and ended up in the nursing home again,No way I would have a nurse come to my apt no more nursing homes for this person.They are rude dont want to do there work.complain when u asks for something leave u sitting in crap for hours not me but my friend did.I dont even begin to tell u what one nurse pulled on me.