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I have so much anger inside of me and I dont know why.I do know that sometimes it is due to my anxieties.the problem is I dont know how to control it.I have tried yelling into my pillow or going into the bathroom but living in a apt building they hear everything,. I seem to get angry at every little thing ,big things to of course.It is so frustrating because nobody here understands my illness.I do have bipolar and a mood disorder to.I know this is not me I am not a violent person,I just feel terrible when I yell sometimes I can control it other times it just sneaks right out of me.I feel like I am a bad person,I don t want to be people that do understand my illness tell me it isnt my fault even my shrink has told me that , I can control it sometimes I laugh instead of yelling if it could only be that way all the time.I feel like when I am yelling something deep down inside of me something is trying to get out. Sometimes it makes me cry too
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Is there a place you could walk to outside that has few people where you could scream/etc? Especially when I was younger, I would go outside when I was frustrated and hike the mountain in back of me, take long walks, that kind of thing. Even if it wasn't perfectly private, you could walk somewhere outside where people don't know you. Strangers probably either wouldn't do anything or just might ask if you are OK.
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I can relate to this so much. I used to get so mad about everything, regardless of how much/little it affected my life. And to be honest even with therapy, I still get very angry. It's just that the antidepressants have lengthened my fuse a bit. I have a similar issue where I cry when I'm enraged. I also live with family so I can't exactly vent anger privately. While I write in a personal journal, it doesn't really work for controlling anger. So yeah, unfortunately I haven't got solutions or suggestions, but I empathize.
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Are you on any sort of medications or are you seeing a therapist for this? What do you do to treat your mental illness? I am glad you post. This is a safe place to vent. I am sorry that your illness makes you feel so out of control. There are things about mental illness that suck.
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I have discussed what I don't like about one of my medications and my pdoc gave me permission to stop it for a few days (in order to improve sex) but then asked me to get back on it. She said OK two weeks on, one week off--but the thing is--after 3 days off my anxiety gets bad so if I go without it too long, I find I get triggered more easily and I want to be "better" than that to everyone I am around. (Just when the sex gets better, I get unstable, there must be a link between fear and good sex. ) So really think about why you don't think you can take it. Anxiety can cause us to make bad decisions sometimes... |
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@xmascarol Have you ever tried dialectal behavioral therapy (DBT)? I've heard it can help with regulating emotions.
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It can take a long time to recover from these things--especially when we are older but time will help. Give it time and keep trying! I am sorry this happened to you.
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Thank u it happened and I can remember what day of the week it was and the time 3am on a Tuesday morning.I had been taking some new pills and I was falling a lot lately but the shrink that I had at this time said they wont make u fall, sure they didnt.It was just awful when I first fell I didnt even know that I hit my head on the entertainment center which by the way it made out if glass,it was every where along with the blood my hair was so messed up they had to trim it. Can u believe this when I fell I developed tremors so when I started to shake one of the younger nurses who was a ***** accused me of faking it.I was so mad told my mom and she let her have it all of a sudden that nurse was so nice to me I couldnt hold onto anything the glass would slip out of my own hands couldnt really hold onto a fork or spoon so they had made special forks and spoons for me,the only thing good about the nursing home was the physical therapists they were so nice and really cared about me I had to learn how to walk all over again,
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I have been so angry since about 4pm doing a lot of yelling ya my windows are open and I am sure the nosy busy bodies are going to say something well do darn bad,i am angry my stupid pc froze right when I was almost all done doing a survey and I would have made 50 dollars I couldnt finish the survey I was yelling and fuming it just ticks me off I know I will probably be in trouble the people around her should learn how to mind there own business if she says anything to me I am going to tell her oh thye can her me now but when I was yelling for help they couldnt hear me which is true when I fell I was yelling for help nobody came
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Do you have access to a treadmill or bike or is there a park close by? I look for ways I can turn that negative energy from anxiety/anger into something good. It’s hard to talk myself into doing something positive like going for a bike ride versus being upset... but when I do it does help.
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I am SO sorry this happened to you. I wonder if this is one of the reasons you can't stop yelling? |
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