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Default Jul 01, 2019 at 08:39 PM
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I dont know why but lately my depression has been bad,I start to cry and then I get confused as to why I am crying,It got to be so bad today I started hitting myself in the head ,I did this before when I was in the nursing home and they told me not to do that cause I could hurt myself I do it because I feel the need to punish myself.I get feelings of dying but I will just sit and wait until my time comes.I aint ready to die yet.Anyway to scared to,this makes me anxious because sometimes I feel like I am going crazy I think I do hit myself because I cannot figure what is wrong with me,I was watching a movie earlier today which made me cry there was a very sick man who broke into a school was going to shoot everyone but he didnt do it because the hostage talked him out of it ,now this is a true story.He surrendered to the police he was on medication but hadnt taken it this movie just made me break down .I cried like I felt guilty because of my mental illness ,does anyone here the same way feel guilty because of your mental illness's? I know it doesnt make any sense,but sometimes these feelings of guilt come across me especially when someone is ill ,like it is my fault.I know it isnt but this is how my brain works, having mood swings doesnt help either
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Does medication help, Carol?
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Default Jul 01, 2019 at 11:04 PM
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Is it hot where you are? I dont feel so great when it is too hot. I just try to stay cool and not worry about being lazy. I had a little stroke in 2012, and i think it was because it was so hot that year. So now i take it easy when its hot and tell myself i am being productive!
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Default Jul 02, 2019 at 09:56 AM
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Does medication help, Carol?
Sometimes I just broke down again I am so confused as to why every single time I take meds it doesnt seem to work.i have told the doctor this too,
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Is it hot where you are? I dont feel so great when it is too hot. I just try to stay cool and not worry about being lazy. I had a little stroke in 2012, and i think it was because it was so hot that year. So now i take it easy when its hot and tell myself i am being productive!
Oh god it is very hot .I wont go outside I am actually afraid of falling I am so confused right now,I just cried again,and yelled to I dont think there is any meds that will help with my anger and yelling,
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Default Jul 02, 2019 at 10:41 AM
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I dont know why but lately my depression has been bad,I start to cry and then I get confused as to why I am crying,It got to be so bad today I started hitting myself in the head ....I cried like I felt guilty because of my mental illness
As you said, your depression is really bad.

I think guilt and depression are one and the same. My depression has mostly lifted and, looking back, I felt guilty about things that I shouldn't have felt guilty about.

I am sorry you are crying so much. You say medications won't help but maybe there is something new you could try. Have you told your doctor how much you are crying and that you are hitting yourself? I am sorry you are suffering so much.
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As you said, your depression is really bad.

I think guilt and depression are one and the same. My depression has mostly lifted and, looking back, I felt guilty about things that I shouldn't have felt guilty about.

I am sorry you are crying so much. You say medications won't help but maybe there is something new you could try. Have you told your doctor how much you are crying and that you are hitting yourself? I am sorry you are suffering so much.
No I never told him I cried just never thought of it but when I see him next I will.i feel so angry tonight,
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Default Jul 02, 2019 at 05:40 PM
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I would definitely tell him about the crying and hitting yourself.

Guilt is a symptom of depression. I feel guilty all the time too.
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Default Jul 03, 2019 at 10:18 AM
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This may sound silly but I feel guilty because of my moms passing that was over a year ago,I feel like whenever someone gets hurt or is in a bad mood it is my fault dont know why I feel this way but I do,
How have you been feeling lately?I do hope that you are alright
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