[xmascarol]

Sometimes I feel like I am being punished for having a mental illness,I know I yell at lot but that is part of my mood disorder.I just feel like I am a bad person, I do take meds but I honestly do feel like anything I take will help with yelling,then I cry.My mom god bless her soul always told me not to cry in front of my children ,I couldnt help it then and I still cannot help it.What are you suppose to do if you suddenly break down and cry.I feel so useless, Sometimes I even wonder why I was even born/Does anyone else feel this way?

[-jimi-]

I grew up with a mom that always yelled at me. Now I have a friend that always yells at me. Both have several things wrong with them, but they refuse to do ANYTHING about it. My mom is older now and calmed down, but my friend is still an avid yeller. She's really breaking my spirits. I wish she would get help and get on medication.

If someone cries I can handle that. Being yelled at all the time, not so much. Meds are not just to treat the sick one, it is also to create a better environment around them. I got quite cranky from anxiety but I did get help and on meds instead of ruining life for others.

[sarahsweets]

Have you tried therapy for the yelling?

[xmascarol]

ya I have done some breathing exercises and actually yelled into a pillow once.I dont think I will ever be cured of that ,I think the doctor believe this is from when I had my bad fall and injury I did hit my head twice.

[TunedOut]

Originally Posted by xmascarol

ya I have done some breathing exercises and actually yelled into a pillow once.I dont think I will ever be cured of that ,I think the doctor believe this is from when I had my bad fall and injury I did hit my head twice.

Have you talked to a therapist about the fall? You could be experiencing PTSD from the event. If it is PTSD, talking about it will make the symptoms worse in the short run but might help them fade with time. My attempt caused me a lot of trauma and I had a lot of sudden urges, anxiety, flashbacks, etc but now, four years later--all of that seems to be gone. It was intense for a couple of years. When you are in an accident, you go into shock (block out the emotions during the event in order to slow your body down and stay alive) but then, eventually, I think your body wants to process the event/feel the emotions you blocked out so you feel the fear/anxiety intensely for a while and that process causes a lot of involuntary physical responses. For example, I would get a lot of intense panic attacks for a while and would lose time (for example, be distracted out of the blue while driving, not remembering how I got from Point A to B because I would think of the event at inopportune times). If you are experiencing PTSD, it might get a little better eventually but I do think it is important to talk about it. I am glad you are talking about it here!

[xmascarol]

Yes he knows all about my falling and he thinks it may have something to do with my yelling. Still makes me feel like I am crazy.Sometimes when I yell I cry too.Like what is wrong with me,

[-jimi-]

Have you ever had a doctor who knew anything about TBI? Seems like you would need that. It is pointless to throw mental help on a physical problem.

[-jimi-]

Funny thing now that I think of it. The friend that yells at me also has TBI in her life history.

[xmascarol]

I have a friend to and sometimes she snaps at me.It makes feel like I want to crawl in a hole,she gets upset when someone yells at her she knows the way I am told her I am very insecure and sensitive,she hasnt yelled that much lately she will just snap at me then I know she is in a bad mood.I told her I was only trying to help.She doesnt think I should worry about her because she has a husband.Well she doesnt want to put more stress on me. I cannot help it is in my nature to want to help someone.