anxiety and panic attacks so bad that I can hardly function, please help

I’ve been to so many doctors and spent so much money just to be told to do breathing exercises and sent home. My symptoms are getting worse. I can hardly breathe, I feel like I’m gasping. My heartbeat is rarely lower than 110, even when I’m resting. I am always so tired that I have to sit down every 5 minutes because I start to feel like my legs weigh a ton. I can’t sleep well and even when I do sleep, it is never restful. My chest, back, and shoulders hurt, and it feels as though my spine is in knots. I’m struggling through my shifts at work as a delivery driver. I dread having to walk up even one flight of stairs, and I even fainted once after climbing back down from 3 flights of stairs.

I’m scared this isn’t just anxiety anymore. But no one is listening to me. I’m becoming desperate and impulsive. I have urges to bang my head with my fists, I’ve pulled out some hair before during a panic attack, and I cry every single day. I don’t have a life. I drag myself to work, and when I get home I’m so weak that I just lay in bed until I have to force myself to go back to work. I barely shower, cook, or do anything that I need to.

I think I’m dying and no one will listen to me. I’m afraid that if I can’t get help even from my doctors, I won’t be able to cope anymore. I have a history of suicide attempts, and I’ve worked really hard to be strong. But I don’t know how much more I can take. I’m in so much pain.

Hello eliaris: I see this is still just your second post, here on PC. Welcome to Psych Central.

I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. And I'm afraid I wouldn't know what to tell you about this. Perhaps you just haven't found the right doctor yet? There certainly are instances where people keep being told there's nothing wrong until they finally find the right doc & s/he finally figures it out. Here where I live we have the Mayo Clinic. And I have the impression that's a place people sometimes go when no other healthcare professionals seem to be able to figure out what's going on. Perhaps there's something similar near where you live?

The other thing that occurs to me is that you might take a look at the forums over on Psych Central's sister website: NeuroTalk. There are a lot of members there who are knowledgeable regarding a wide range of neurological conditions as well as other medical conditions. Here's a link:

NeuroTalk Support Groups

There are a number of articles, in Psych Central's archives, that offer tips for coping with anxiety & panic attacks. I don't know if there will be anything in any of them that will really be of help. However here are links to six of them along with a link to an article that talks about how to survive suicidal thoughts:

Anxiety Disorders: Symptoms, Types & Treatments | Psych Central

Tips to Cope with a Panic Attack

How to Navigate Your Panic Attacks During These Turbulent Times

6 Ways to Distract Yourself From Panic

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/life-...6/eft-anxiety/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/stop-a...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/blog/how-to...idal-thoughts/

I hope you're finding PC to be of benefit.

I’m sorry if this wasn’t the right place to post this. I was a little out of my mind when I wrote this.

Oh honey I'm so sorry. I'm actually going through a lot of the same. when people wont listen let alone drs you feel alone . If you have insurance keep trying to find a dr who listens . I know it may sound strange but texting a crisis line maybe very helpful . I actually had myself this morning. Just don't give up the fight. I think I can speak for all of us here when I say we're here and understand and care for you.

Have you seen a GP to have bloodwork/blood pressure etc checked? If they tell you no they wont check those things then you need to insist they do.