Anyone else have a fear of time/missing out/death?

Okay i don’t necessarily fear death itself more like, what id leave behind if i were to pass, and i guess the answer to that is , nothing :/...I’ve tried explaining this to my bf and I think he took it upon himself to do some research but he still doesn’t understand so I’m trying to explain in more detail :/. One day he just kept shouting “fomo??” “ fomo??” And i got annoyed because i had zero clue what he was talking about and told him to stop yelling that as if it’s a word?? But i guess, it is a thing! Just... not my thing... i guess the fear of missing out, f.o.m.o, is more about fearing friends or family or whoever are busy doing things and not including you? It seems that social media plays a role in that when seeing people’s posts and stuff... but my problem is that i believe that time is sacred, and you shouldn’t waste it because today could be your last.... but like... to the extreme.. so now i get extremely upset, even cry, when the day is even half over because i feel like i wasted my whole morning or my whole day... the idea that i could die tomorrow and i spent my last day doing nothing really bothers me. But then ill go out and do a bunch of things and ill get burned out... I don’t always sleep well because ill stay up late and wake up early because i fear ill “ miss” something.. that im not taking advantage of the time available to me:/... it only makes me more tired during the day and more upset.. I’ve been trying to get better at sleeping more even if it’s napping during the day but like... i cant shake this feeling that i need to speed things up ya know? Like i want move to a dif place asap. Or like.. get married asap... do all the things you’re “supposed” to do in your lifetime in enough time to enjoy it just in case... i guess one can call that an irrational fear but i mean is it?:/... is it so silly to want to experience these milestones in case our time here is shortened? Im constantly thinking i could get in a car wreck, or just not wake up and thats it... didnt do anything... nothing to show for my life... and it makes me depressed... i guess the only thing is that i have not done anything too destructive:/ meaning , my bf and I have been together for a few yrs so lets say we jumped ahead and got married, its not like im going out and marrying a stranger for fear of never having the experience.... still bad but .... idk.. and yes, I know exactly what triggered this fear in me, but I haven’t come to any solutions that are reassuring or comforting to stop thinking/feeling this way. As in I may be able to talk myself down during a panic attack ... but how do you comfort the thought of death?? I cant tell myself it will be okay, it wont happen, it’s silly, it cant happen to me? Thats just uncertain! how do you shake the fear of mortality? How do you enjoy each and every day when tomorrow isn’t promised?? How do you become okay with doing nothing for a day instead of working to the ground or doing stuff to constantly keep busy? How do you live without feeling like you’re missing something? An event? A place? A second in the day?:’(

I understand what you're saying. Time is precious. But, for example, a day, a moment can feel so painful, you may wish desperately for the feeling of nothingness. And the only thing you want is to not hurt anymore.

I have several fears relating to death/time

I'm not scared of the actual process of death, it's going to happen- and I think I'm at peace with that, I'm going to die, just like everyone else is, that's how thw world goes. time doesn't stop for no one.

but: I don't want to die alone. in an ideal world I want someone with me, holding my hand as I take my final breath (and I don't have family, so this is a worry that I might not have that.)

my other worry about death is that my final wishes won't be followed and done how I want them to be done.

I have all ready planned most of my funeral, the songs that I want played, the fact I want flowers, the fact it's going to be small, and I have even said what I want done with my body. I just worry that in life, none of my wishes have really been accepted and followed, nor will this- and if my final wishes arn't followed, then what do I have in life?

I said I had anxiety with time, that is: am I making the most of my time on earth?. am I going to get to the final few hours, days, and be happy?. or wish that I have longer. their is so much to do, and so much I've not done

I just don't know if.... well, I've lived life like I should. I don't know.

and I suppose re: things I'll leave behind, me too. their's going to come a day where all the things I enjoy doing (breav, listen to music, watch tv, listen to bird sounds)) it isn't going to happen

one thing I struggle with as far as that goes, is that even though I'm dead, back on earth people are still going to be doing it. life goes on without me. that's what is going to happen and I really don't like the idea of that- makes me anxious to think that I'm going to die, their's not going to be much of a pause in life, things are just going to cary on

Trying to rap your mind about eternity, the fear of the unknown and is there something after this is what always bother me since I was a kid. I can push this to the back of my mind when I am busy. However, in this current situation we as Americans are in, it makes a lot of things worse, in my mind anyway. We are doing everything we can to not be part of the growing number we see on our screens.

I can relate. My parents died young and I'm about a month from turning the same age as my dad was when he died. That's been on my mind for years. I feel like my time is running out and I'll miss out on being with my pups. To abandon then like my parents did. Neither being done on purpose, but it still feels terrible. Not really afraid of death as a whole, just in missing out the time with my pups so they know I love them and that I was there for them always. That's about my only goal in life. But because of that, I don't make the best use of my day and it makes me sad to think about what I could have done in life or what I still might be able to accomplish but just might not have the time.

Anyway, I understand. Hope this helped.